Monday, April 11, 2005

~some touching scene~

wee ping called to talk to me asking me am i ok..ya i told her..i can talk and laugh like wat in the past..not a problem now..she juz kept reminding tat i muz reali pass my gp no matter wat..if not next yr i would be kick out of the sch liao..reali think she is a nice frien even though she keep repeating herself tat i muz pass gp..seriously i need ppl to teach and coach me personally then i will learn..or else i reali cant be bothered with it..serisously she is better than yan hui..i wont deny tat now me and yan hui quite close, but at times i still dun reali like the way she talk..i still prefer tp stay with my ex 106 classmates..at least they are better and more caring towards ppl..our class spirit is wan to die then die together..still can rmb the timkes clearly during the times we do pw..
then tanu called me to ask me wat time is my break on thur and wee ping asked me wat time will i end sch tat day..then i know wat they up to liao..its so obvious..ask them wat they are trying to do but nobody wans to tell me..how can??not fair sia..tanu..last yr, i told u scretly wat they do and this yr u dun wan tell me..and weird thing is tat i muz wait for them til 5pm..duno wat they are up to also..am i thinking wat they are thinking>>haha..ok i shall act blur..then on fri nite when i went home, mum keep saying tat see lah now tat i retained must waste their money on my education..and they would hav to yang me one more yr..u think i wan to retained meh??do i feel happy when i retained??then yesterday i was so pissed off tat i sae out watever i like and sae them bac..then mum saes who ask u everytime keep quiet and dun wan communicate with us..we duno wat u are thinking abt..tok u sleeping wat..so muz keep scolding u..ok loh then later she called me guai sian girl girl u muz listen to me in future..then i was still angry with her and sae shut up lah..and my idiot brother kept laughing at me for wat i sae..then he sae "wa wa so daring ah??tat time feel like smacking him..idiot..actually i think tat mum is a person tat can be reasoned out also after talking to her yesterday, but seriously i reali feel fed up talking to me..eg is my ho spoil liao and she dun believe me..damn..now is reali big spoil liao..now the hp cant even type put a proper msg..sometimes a bit retarded..and nowadays i like to scold "ma de"..duno why..this is spoiling my guai image..i muz reali keep my bad habit of scolding this bad word already..then i still feel tat my phy is still so lousy..i still muz ask my brother how to do..i think reali got great difference between yj and nj students..but wat to do??i am slow in learning in nature wat..cant help it..oh ya then fast few days i think tat can jealous of me when shank wave to me and sae hi..then she sae why he never wave to her and instead to me..then i was thinking, too bad loh..ppl like me more than u ..cant help it..then can tahan is tat she sae she like tat toilet cleaner and she wans his hp no..i was thinking tat wa lao she so despo wan..ya true tat the cleaner was quite yan dao but u no need like tat one rite??then she still got sae wed we wear bikini togther leh with yan hui..then i sae i dun hav..then i sae u lend me then maybe i can consider..then she sae different size leh..then i ask her urs one like the same size as mine leh..then she sae reali got tat small meh??then i sae ya..i think i hurt her pride..but who cares..i am stating the truth wat..juz too bad..i am a straight forward person..i juz sae watever i like..
thinking of tat i got a wish from last yr and i waited for so long til this yr..but looks like it can be fufiled anymore..and i think tat my tat wish reali looks like it is drifting further and further away from me..hai~~
i was reading my testimonial on sat nite which they wrote to me during i was in jj..realised tat i am known to others as a shy, quiet and sweet girl..then one of the FIT trainer wai long wrote to me saying "sweet girl muz go tanned a bit..too fair liao..ya thinking of tat i am going to do tat on wed..then khai and mi xue testi quite entertaining also..mi xue sae she likes my complexion..huh? my complexion reali gt so nice meh>?then still got another FIT trainer, cant rmb wats is his name, then i used to look at him scretly cos i think he yan dao..thinking of tat i think tat all my actions are veri stupid and foolish..then still got tjo, jeff frien..he is my ogl and jeff used to smile at me whenever he walk past me and my heart was beating so fast..gosh~~then apple also, used to admire his cos he quite cute plus he boy boy and shy shy type..and he always blush..haha..then my og group knew tat i like him always like to kar jiao me..and there is this malay guy cant rmb wats is his name also asked for my hp no..but i didnt give even though he quite look looking..no wonder when i was listening to lectures he keep looking and turning bac..but i didnt know tat..tok he looking at other ppl so i didnt bother..but later i found out tat he is a flirt and after tat he became attached in such as short time..at least i see the true side of him..so luckily i wasnt friens with him and i dun wish to be frien with this kind of ppl also..counting tat i think tat i like quite a no of jj guys..haha but yj like none even though this yr the j1 quite gd looking..but they are still younger than me ah..maybe i still prefer liking guys tat are older than me..duno why ah??maybe tat is juz me..and maybe becos liking an older guy will make me more secure..

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