sat went for piano lesson in a sian sian mood cos i reali no mood to go for piano given tat my results are so bad and i duno wat to do now..my piano teacher talk alot to me..she asked me abt my results and she said tat all of her students also get this kind of grades and one of her student told her tat her teacher said tat this yr the average grade is C..does it mean tat everyone also do badly??tat was wat i am thinking at tat time.but one thing i am certain is tat this yr the competition is veri tough cos dragon babies mah,i rabbit confirm lose to them cos from wat i see mostly dragon babies are smarter than rabbits.she told me tat i should choose wat i like instead of going into courses which i am forced to cos i dun have other choices..she sae tat there are many routes to reach my aim and i shouldnt just purely take tat onli route.she sae tat i am just not willing to try..i know tat i do have other routes to take, but why do i feel like i am at a dead end, no where else to go..my piano teacher told me tat i shouldnt worry abt the money part and choose watever i wan to study but how can i not worry man,my dad earn less than $1000 per month and the sch fees itself is not even enough to cover for it lah..moreover asking me to study private sch, will mean tat i no need to eat liao..seriously now i think the money part is a big problem..if i am richer then i need not worry abt going to local or private or overseas uni liao..
sun early morning went out wit my dad to serangoon to pray cos he sae my luck reali veri dao mei cos everytime results always do badly when it comes to critical times like O levels or A levels..actually in other aspects too, things always dun go smoothly..sometimes i am thinking tat am i relai tat unlucky always???cos watever i do i am always not sucessful or always fail or do badly..why is my brother always so de sucessful??his results and luck is always so gd..i reali dun understand why..sometimes i think god is unfair..my dad sae he wont look down on me cos afterall onli experiencing failure will then make one stronger..true, but i have enough of failing, cant i be succuessful just for once??mum was like looking down at me and kept on comparing me wit my brother..i am seriously sick of it liao man..she keep nagging whole day long tat i dun cherish everything esp my piano..she keep asking me to persue the piano route cos she sae i onli got this route to choose but i dun like cos i am not an art person, i am more of the sci person..just becos of this we quarrel everyday..hai~~talking abt the pray, we went to a thai temple..then got monks to chant for us..but i dun understand wat he is saying abt..and he spray abit of "holy water" on me..then dad wans me to use the "holy water" to bathe there cos there got toilet, but i dun wan cos i find it stupid, but eventually i did cos i was forced to..he sae seldom got this chance..anyway i dun give a damn abt such things.duno if i should believe such things cos i just find it ridiculous..
after tat went to meet maril since i got some time left..went to her house..after which proceed to zheng quan house for gathering..everybody got abit of change..jun wei become veri shuai and macho now..he looks damn cute la, but too bad, he is attached, he brought his gf along too..they seems veri competitible..haha..we played card games tat day like pocal..but i duno how to play such things cos i never gamble before and moreover i duno jack or queen is bigger, all i know is A is the biggest..tat day i also drank beer..but onli abit onli la cos i wanted to try how it taste..seriously it taste terrible..i also drank sweet wine, also it taste terrible..maybe i duno how to appreciate la..but i dun understand why so many ppl like to drink arh when it taste so bad..went home quite late tat day..reach home 10.30pm le..tat day eat alot man..think all the siew mai all finish cos i ate mostly all of them..haha..
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