Wednesday, October 01, 2008

~k box @ some cui place~

lately, i have been speaking lots of ang mo to my click friends.duno why huh..maybe i think i am abit siao huh..or rather i am trying to revert back to how i speak to ppl orginally at work..watever the reason it is, the thing tat i am trying to emphasize is to be myself..everyone has their own uniqueness and individuality..i guess sometimes its gd to change some parts of urself just for the better, but i must say that changing too much for the sake for changing, would be too over le or rather pointless, cos if tat's the case, you wouldnt be who you are, or rather you wouldnt be who you are made for.. ;) so, the moral of the story is to be yourself !
house lately has been happening lots of unhappy things..whenever i go home everyday, i always feel tat this particular house feels like a battle field or rather some war going on and there is seriously no peace at all..tat;'s why i always dun like going home..i would rather stay outside til super late then go home sleep and the next day repeat its own cycle again..ya, tat's how i feel abt my home now..mum keep finding fault with everyone and i am sometimes kinda pissed over it cos i reali feel like none of us are wrong lo, its her who is mostly at fault.haiz...even my dad sometimes feels damn pissed and angry with her and just leave the house..ya, i always wanted to do tat, but i scared later i am not allowed to step into the house again cos the nxt moment, the door would be locked ! i seriously feel sorry for my dad cos he always get "bullied" by my mum and seriously i feel tat all the guy's dignity and zun yan tat a guy have all is totally gone in my dad cos he always give in when its not his fault at all..for me, when i am bu shuang or pissed, i just dun talk to her and treat her as a transparent object..everyone in the family just seems "bo gum" with her right now..haiz...wat a "cosy" house i have man..
tues afternoon after sch, went to my house nearby with them to sing k..seriously tat place damn cui man and the sings are kinda outdated..but there isnt much ppl around, so not too bad, cos if not sure get laugh by ppl de..haha..but seriously i think my singing isnt tat bad afterall la, just tat i need more confidence nia and need to brush up on my chinese..other than tat, i think my singing quite alright..actually initally i cant reali sing de, but its through the many singing experiences with my JC friends tat i got to train and sing better cos tat JC click of mine can sing reali super well man..so whenever i sing with them, i always feel so cui man...haha.for the guys, i think el is quite alright, just tat need more guts, bold and confidence to sing..kh too monotone le, need to put in more expressions and feel abt the music itself..tat day was kinda enjoyable though its onli the 4 of us nia..cos too many laughter and jokes were made ;)
yesterday i had piano class with my student and my student has moved to a more ulu place where there are reali lots of ....ok, but i have gotton used to it le..i seriously dun understand why those ppl always like to sit at the pavements as if its like their house nia and why do they always wrap one towels across their waist? why cant they all just wear pants man..i seriously got the tendency to pull their towels down and made them pei seh man..and i cant stand it when they like to adjust their "towels" right in the public..wat the hell, this is so un-glam man..ok, enough of this crap..when i first saw the building outside my students' house, i was super shocked cos it reali looks veri nice and classy..and when i stepped into her house, i relai feel like i am staying in a hotel man..omg, her house is reali damn polished and big and there is this roop top garden to chill out..seriously i think her parents are reali damn freaking rich man..but ytd my lesson with her made me reali feel like giving up in her cos i always feel tat she is not serious in playing and watever i taught her cant reali get into her mind..or rather she is those bo chap in learning type..i reali feel veri sian teaching such students man..but i seriously duno how can i teach so tat at least she dun feel tat sian..haiz..i seriously dun think my lesson is sian lo cos i always wanted to teach her new stuff, but she always can play even the basics, how u wan me to teach the more chime stuff..haiz..wat a fann student man..

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