~i am damn pissed~

tues when i was going for lesson then suddenly saw my ex j1 gp tutor who is the discipline master,then i faster turn my way bac and took the longer route to class just to avoid him..but so sway tat he suddenly saw me becos somehow he took the same route as me..wanted to siam him again but its too late !! cos both of us are facing face to face and he has seen me..so i smiled to him and he sae "hi"..then he said "eh?? u are bac??" yup,i replied..i came bac just in case i cant go in..initally wanted to talk more,but i got math lesson so cant cos my math teacher is veri fierce and i dun dare to rovolt him..ya,he saw my hair then he smiled saying:"ur hair arh.."then i sae ok..actually i know myself wat he meant la..he wan me to do something to my hair..

i guess tat its heaven will tat he wants me to bump into ppl tat i wan to avoid..and its true..first was the discipline master..later was the principle..actually if he isnt the discipline master then i wouldnt want to avoid him cos he is reali a nice teacher,but too bad,he is a discipline master and i have break the sch rules,so i cant stay close to him..as for the principle she is also nice too..just tat i am too ashamed to face her,tat's why i choose to avoid her..so wed morning when i went to sch.she was standing at the walk way there cos i was late for sch,so i supposed she is there to "scold ppl" and some other purposes..but anyway i reali wanted to siam her but i cant cos i cant turn bac liao and its veri obvious if i do tat,so i hope tat she wont recognise me..but too bad,she reali recognised me and she smiled to me asking me how am i doing..so i told her tat i am bac just in case i cant go in..so she asked me wat grade i got,so i told her..she said tat there is still some chance for the courses tat i have chosen..hai~though its happy to hear tat,but eventually its NTU and NUS tat has the final decision to decide wether to take me as their student.i guess she reali close one eye to my hair cos i believe tat she did saw tat,just tat she didnt sae..she asked me why didnt i apply for SIM..then i told her tat i dun have the money to pay for the fees..even though i might be able to pay for the first sum,but how abt the subsequent ones? eventually i still cant continue studying if i cant pay for sch fees,at the end of the story,i will still be kick out..she said to me tat if i got any problems can find her..when i heard tat i find her reali nice,but rest assured tat i wont find her unless i reali desperate..students always find her naggy and boring,but actually she is reali a nice principle..i have been in this sch for slightly for more than 3 yrs,though she is naggy but she is kind at heart..then the discipline master came walking towards us then i was tinking oh shit ! i am supposed to do something abt my hair when he told me the day before,but i didnt do anything.so i pretended to be rushing for lessons since i was late then left him alone with the principle to talk..tat's was one lucky escape..

but my luck cant last tat long cos todae (thur) something reali bad happen..i was caught by the vice principle after assembly becos of my hair..i was damn pei seh man cos everyone nears me seems to heard it..teachers like mdm ho saw it then smile to me and i smile bac cos she knows tat i have gotton into trouble..most teachers know abt it and my gp teacher even ask me during lesson..oh man,tat's damn pei seh lah..so he asked me who is my tutor and i told him ms lim..but i duno wat's her full name so he said which ms lim..seriously i am damn blur la,come to sch for 1 month still duno wat's my teacher name..so my friend help me..when i walked out of the hall, every teachers who saw me look at me cos i am the onli student who leave the hall so early and somehow the look tat the teachers gave me was tat wat grave mistake have i done..so he summon me to my tutor then my tutor was shocked..but my tutor kept quiet when he speaks abt me..i reali feel bad and guilty tat my teacher got "Scolded" by him just becos of me..so i apologsize to my teacher for causing trouble for her..and i feel bad becos she speak up for me despite i am in the wrong when i have broken the sch rules..actually the vice prinicple demanded tat i sign the early leave form to go bac home redye bac my hair but i choose to ignored wat he said cos i just find him unreasonable and lame..so i told my teacher tat i am not going bac home cos i have lots of lesson to attend todae and i am not going to go bac home just becos of wat he ordered..so wat he is a vice principle..i dun give a damn to it..all i know tat i shouldnt skip class becos i have lots of stuff to catch up with..seriously i am damn pissed off and when i stepped into my class, my maths teacher asked me why am i late then i gave him the bu shuang tone sayin "the vice principle talked to me.."seriously tat time i was wrong to talk to him using tat tone but he didnt sae anything..i was just in a fit of anger tat i vent my anger when i spoke to him,so it was my mistake and i am sorry for tat..the whole of maths lesson i was just showing my black face and mind wasnt concentrating cos i am still angry over his unreasonable demand..so i reali wasted a maths lesson,though i am physically there,but my mind wasnt there just becos i am angry..seriously i am veri remoseful for giving my teacher so much trouble cos she is veri nice and yet i gave her so many problems..i am definitely not going to redye bac my hair cos it will cost more money but i will do something abt it in order not to get catch again..maybe i shall put black spray but in the long run my hair will be chemically damaged..hai~~tat vice principle is giving me so much problems..i am vexed abt my uni application results liao and he added more problems for me..fann ah !!!!!!!

my math test didnt do well also though i didnt fail,but i expect the grades to be better since i am repeating the sec time..so it leads me to question myself tat do i relai still want to continue on? cos i dun see my grades improving at all,there is onli slight or rather minimum improvement..hai~yesterday i was asking dad tat if i cant go in then how..he sae maybe continue on..mum stand is work and my stand is work too cos i reali find it pointless when i stay in sch and the sch teaches stuff tat are not reali impt to my syllabus but yet impt to their syllabus..at such i dun reali feel tat i benefit alot..esp subjects like chem..they cut short so many stuff and those impt things tat is in my syllabus are removed from their syllabus..like tat its reali hard for me to catch up..aiya i reali duno man,mind is still tat vexed..my brother for medicine and he cant get in even with 4 As..i dun understand wat they want wan man, i feel tat 4 As are reali gd enough liao but duno why he feels cant get in..yes,he was kinda sad cos he always hope to take medicine..but i guess he is end up in parmacy ba..seriously it leads me to think tat this yr competition is veri stiff given tat its a dragon yr and how am i going to go in with this kind of grades...hai~