~i am reali tired le~

i think gp lesson is damn rubbish la..they ask ppl from outside to teach us public speaking when i feel tat its not the time to learn such bo liao things at this point of time cos A levels dun emphasizes on our oral communication..anyway its like wasted paying $40 just to sit there to let ppl comment on ur speech..and tat presenter like sit there do nothing..wat the hell man,feel like my money is kana cheated..wa lao life is damn sian man..yesterday slept at 2.30am just to complete the maths homework again cos go home still need to play piano for exam..damn tired now..i reali feel like i cant cope anymore..so ended up like sleeping in lectures cos i seriously cant tahan liao..but luckily the teacher didnt caught me..haha..anyway i am reali angry with my maths teacher cos he always tell ppl things last min and i didnt receieved the msg during the weekend cos no one tell me..actually i am not reali close wit the class,so cant reali blame them for not passing the msg around to me..actually most of the time,i was around with my repeat friends..seriously i duno reali know much abt my classmates..all i know is they are damn hardworking,not like me..i tend to be forgetful this few days..got tests and homework also cant remeber to do.so ended up like not preparing for work before going to class..hai~i am damn tired now..the next few days still got lots of homework to catch up with..
mr wong saw me today when i was walking past the class,then he call me out to talk talk..he asked me how am i coping and asked me if i apply for uni le..he tinks tat i should stay on if i cant go uni regardless of how long did i took,so his stand was yes i should stay on..but duno leh,i feel tat its pointless cos no matter how many times i repeat cos i cant pass my gp..but still he was veri encouraging to me..something to be happy abt cos at this pt of time,i reali need some encouragement cos i reali look down on myself liao cos i feel tat i am a study idoit,meaning tat i am one tat isnt the study type..duno man,ppl took like 2 yrs to study jc and i need to study 4 yrs..wa lao might well i go sec sch and study..i got still 1.5 months more to know the application results..wa lao damn long man..duno i can tahan til tat day or not..yesterday yh also told me her stand tat she feels tat i shouldnt stay on..she feels tat i can work and study at the same time instead of wasting time in yj cos my results can actually go somewhere de,just tat i no money onli..its bad,but not those veri bad to tat extent..she also feels tat for a ger to take 4 yrs to study is just too long..unless guys,they still can afford it cos they still got army..hai~~such decision are reali hard to made..
todae finally saw my idol 1 and 2 at the same time,one after another..hmm..idol 1 did have some changes,at least dun wear the same old clothes liao cos he always wear the same colour shirt..idol 2 as usual, always so stylish..anyway i reali quiet in class man,dun reali talk at all,duno why also,but i dun get quiet when i talk to yk they all,maybe i reali duno them tat well,so cant reali talk much..