~i think i look like an ah lian~

yesterday was supposed to end sch veri early but eventually i still decide to go home late to study for my chem test cos i know tat if i were to go home early then confirm i wont study..so i sat at the library to practise my chem tys mcqs..manage to finish 2 topics of the organic chem sections then later came the dicipline master chasing us to go for the CT period..actually initally i wanted to pon liao but no choice since he saw us then bo bian have to go for it..if i have remembered for it then i will go some place to hide to do my self study,better than going there zhuo bo and disrupting my drive when i am motivated to finish my mcqs...then yesterday so sway tat i saw the discipline master cos i thought tat i dun have much lesson so can slack abit in term of making my hair black..but duno he saw it or not cos he didnt sae anything..so i faster use a pin to pin to my hair up..but sometimes when he dun sae anything,in fact i will feel even guilty cos I feel tat i am abusing his trust towards me..seriously duno why when ppl dun even sae a thing,i will feel even guilty..and i think i reali look like an ah lian now in sch uniform cos my uniform already looks like an ITE student liao and plus with tat "golden hair" makes me feel reali worst..looks more like an ah lian now..even cm said tat when i told her tat i didnt redye bac my hair..but she sae tat wear outside clothes looks nice..haha..then yesterday nite was chatting with her cos she called me to complain abt the bus driver confiscating her bus pass claiming tat she should be using adult fare too..actually previously when i was working tat time i also encountered the same thing as her,just tat the bus driver didnt confiscate my bus pass and he let me off..he asked me to stop and he sae he wanted to look at my bus pass,duno for wat reason also,but i suspect tat he is thinking why am i still using children fare..
mum haven been giving me a gd time either this few days..she kept on nagging and scolding me for no reason and she keep insisting tat i need to play my piano first before i can do my homework..then i damn pissed off la..its none of her business which one i wan to do first,as long as i got play for her to listen can liao.but she is just unreasonable..tat's why this few days i dun wan to go home early cos i am veri fann whenever i get home..moreover the piano exam is coming reali soon in july..hai~~duno why i still feel tat i cant pass this time round..i still got alot of stuff duno and if i reali fail this time,my mum will confirm be veri angry with me cos she invested alot of money in it liao and failing will mean tat i am throwing and wasting all her money...hai~~why are life always full of troubles..
it seems tat lately i am reali super quiet,dun feel like talking also..i am still a loner in sch..i am usually alone cos of the same reason..sometimes hardly even talk to my classmates cos i cant find any common topics with them..