~eye power has increased..oh no!!~

yesterday was a super super slack day cos i have never been so slack before since i have reali nothing to do..well,it feels reali gd to be paid for 6.5hrs and yet i onli did 2hrs of work..wah, tat feeling is reali shoik.as to why is it like tat,its becos the sale person tat i am under is super damn slack, and she always like to forward me mails late in the afternoon.before tat she will take her own sweet time to eat breakfast and talk and walk around the office.so indirectly, i am affected by her..but never mind, since i am paid wat,who cares so much man. then yesterday duno why they so weird la, ask me drink again in office during the late afternoon.wa lao i think they are reali siao man.seriously i dun understand wat's so nice abt drinking loh,moreover its super bad for health. so i rejected them and said tat i dun feel like drinking todae..yeah, i must stop myself from drinking,else i will get addicted to it man.so yesterday,tat 2hrs of work are reali damn lot and i got to rush reali fast cos i have to meet my agent to pass my time sheet to them.yeah,after work went to town there to meet the agent,after which went to collect my free trial colour contact lens.haha, seriously i doubt i will wear contact lens de cos i am so scared..i am just taking for the fun of it onli nia and since there is free eyecheck with it, so why not go for it.its been 3 yrs since i last went for my eye check.and the jialat thing is tat my estigmatism has increased quite a lot.short sightedness still remains relatively constant.well, i guess i reali have to take better care of my eyes, if not my power will continue to increase and i will become more blind.after tat went to meet my brother army "Friend" to collect my brother hp stuff..after which proceeded to jp to window shop.actually yesterday i have the intention of buying clothes again since it was on sale again and its reali cheap, but i told myself tat i cant anymore cos if not my mum will scream at me again cos i have been buying clothes for the last consecutive weeks.then yesterday saw my sec 1 guy classmate and he called out for me.seriously i reali envy him for having such a lasting relationship with the sch mate of mine in sec sch.they have been dating since sec 2 and til now they are still together !! yup, hopefully one day i can find such a nice and chi qing guy.
todae is another boring day again.as usual,i haven been doing anything from morning til now and currently its already 2 pm soon.oh man, its reali super super slack.and jialat man now,cos my office comp is showing syptoms of virus infections.oh my god, i duno how man,cant tell them tat i gotton virus due to msn rite?? oh shit, this is damn wat..Lately, mo mo ren has been wanting to meet up with me, but this lousy qm dun feel like cos i am not close with him..or rather i still find him a stranger despite talking to him once face to face onli..yup.tat's the conclusion.

~this is bad cos every wk i am drinking!!~

last fri was reali a terrible day cos i have to finish tat bloody consolidation thingy which is like damn mafan and fed up cos information is everywhere and i have to arrange the information according to the customers' details and its damn freaking troublesome.so this kind of rubbish job i have to do since the others are busy with their own stuff.then last fri also drank with the gers in my office at abt 5pm cos i felt tat i am obliged to drink since my big boss offered me to drink.i cant possibly rejected ppl kindness rite, though i reali dun feel like drinking cos i dun like to drink!! i once told myself tat champaigns and red wine taste reali terrible, but now i actually find it ok now.oh man, i thought tat could a deterrence for me to drink, but looks like i am getting used to the horrible taste of red wine and champagine.alright, tat day i onli drink slips of it out of courteousy. the remaining ones i threw the drink away.though i know i am veri wasteful cos that campagin isnt cheap at all, but i dun care liao la, cos drinking is bad for health !! but i didnt threw it in the office la cos wat if they saw it then i die man..so i brought the cup outside the office and threw in on my way bac.they always give me so much of the red wine and sometimes i bo bian have to finish in order not to waste it since the red wine is reali expensive man.
sat was still working on my brother scholarship stuff again.yes, finally i am almost done with his schloarship stuff after so many weeks since weekdays i am usually not free..then sat evening went to NTU with my parents for dinner.first went to canteen 1 to eat western food,but since the variety was reali limited, so went to canteen 2 for our next stop.but after tat we reaslied tat there are lots of ppl and so we went to canteen 16 followed by 13.yup,ate the korean food tat the tv once advertise before.yeah tat canteen kinda ulu man but i think the pricing was kinda worth it since i was quite a big serving and it onli cost $3.80.ok, next time i shall go there eat again once a while if i study in NTU =)
sun was pretty much rotting away watching the vcd tat i borrowed from my student.yes, i owe her for many weeks le.last few weeks are reali busy la,so haven reali watch at all. this sat has an "outing" with them but i think its much more of a celebration for me.though its super early to celebrate on this sat but i am reali touched tat my friends are celebrating my 21st with me.reali,i am saying this from my bottom of my heart...initally i reali didnt have the intention of celebrating le since anyway birthday dun reali mean much to me since i dun usually celebrate ir unless friends celebrate it with me.yeah,perhaps 21st is onli once in a lifetime,so i should reali enjoy it.as to which restaurant to go, i am still clueless cos as u know i dun usually go resturants to eat de.the common places i usually eat is fast food,food court and hawker.so i reali have to crack my head liao.yesterday finally went jogging since its been many many weeks since i last jog le.yes, i jog for 10 rounds before it rains in the night..
oh man,today is reali rotting day.ever since 8.30am, i have nothing to do til now..its almost 12pm le..yet i have nothing to do..oh man, i have a bad news cos i think my office comp is affected with virus due to the stupid msn link tat i have gotton from my friend.its looks like:
3hrs of sleep yesterday.super shagged now...* said: hey check this .. http://very.cooolstuff.info .. brb ..dear friends,pls dun click on this when u see this cos its virus and i onli came to know abt it today onli til jeff told me abt it.i am reali reali sorry who kana tat virus becos of me.anyway i am trying to do something abt the office comp now, else if i affect the whole system then i will die man !

~so ke lian to the extent tat i got to bring office work bac home~

yesterday life is kinda tired and shagged for me cos i have to bring bac work to do cos i was given last min things to do and the deadline is today.since i felt tat i confirm cant finish today, so i bo bian have to bring bac my work home to do..seriously i duno why as a temp i must work so hard as compared to those perm staff.actually my colleague was supposed to give me work few days bac so tat i need not rush and panic last min,but damn, she keep dragging day by day and finally she decided to teach me how to do it and i bo bian have to finish by hook or by crook by today.and worst still,tat task tat i am given is veri tedious to do and the information is here and there and everywhere.so i got to collate and combine everything,then after tat write nicely for everything before i can key into the system. now, thinking bac, i know why she choose me to do of all the ppl in my department.she knows tat i wont say "no" to her if she were to ask me do tat allocated task.if she were to give this to other ppl,probably ppl might show her black face.ya,i also bu shuang, but wat can i do?? anyway temp are always the one who often get bullied by the perm staff,so wat to do man.and becos of HER,i onli slept for 3hrs onli just to complete her work.wa lao eh, now i am super tired and shagged sia..reali feel like sleeping now..then yesterday she and the big boss asked me to join them for steamboat todae at taka.but wat puzzled me was why did they suddenly invite me to join them for steamboat instead of my other colleague in my department.i am not as close with them either or perhaps she is just pei seh tat i have to do last min things for her.as for the big boss,i guess tat she invite me cos her pet ask me go for steamboat,so naturally she is agreeable to it.sian man.i am reali so so tired ...some on i reali need a break if not for tat money.
yesterday i am reali glad tat my student has some improvement cos she finally made an effort to at least try practising wat i taught her so far.cos its no point i talk and teach so much, and yet she didnt try to practise out.yeah,at least yesterday lesson was quite fruitful.at least she did learned something.and yesterday i was reali pissed off waiting for the 185 bus cos i waited 45 min just for the bus.if i have walk home from my student's house,probably it would be faster than taking tat stupid bus home.and becos of it, i miss 50 mins of my favourite show !
OK,todae,work is veri loaded also.hai~ sian, i am so tired !

~Company policy~

recently i reaslied that my company got lots of "company policies"...over lunch,my small boss would talk abt the sales people and i realised tat they are indeed not as simple as wat i thought.ya,right from the start they shouldnt be tat simple when they are working under the sales line.i always realised tat why does this company is so special tat ppl can go for morning breakfast during office hours for 1 hour or more.and those ppl can take 2 hours lunch and yet the boss is also one of those group of ppl.whenever they cant hit their target, if you are the boss pet, then the boss will try to take other colleague sales and cover up for her pet's sales target.and i reali canot take it when the big boss actually scold f***-ing twice yesterday.this is the sec time i am hearing vulgar from her liao.shouldnt be boss set a gd role model for employees? ya, i think she is reali a "gd model" to the extent tat everyone in the company is using vulgar quite oftenly now.sometimes, their vulgar is so chime tat i cant understand at all.oh my god, hopefully i dun wan to be influence under them,neither do i wan to be one of them.
oh no,today i got piano lesson again.hai~ sian man, duno wat my student will say again. i will reali get pissed off if she says she didnt practice her piano again.but dun worry i wont get pissed out in front of her..

~Super bored today~

oh my god, i am seriously damn sian today..i have been rotting for many many hours cos there is nothing for me to do..and i am seriously sleepy.yawns..this weekend might probably be more free for me ba (hoefully) and i am feeling reali fat now.time to jian fei le..and yesterday bought another jeans again.oh man,i realised tat lately i have been buying at least one clothes per week oh gosh,this is bad cos sometimes i dun even wear it after i bought it..many times i just forgot wat clothes i bought le so sometimes i just kept on wearing the same old dressing again and again.

~pay increment..hooray !!!~

the gers all the chalet room =)
us again !

todae my small boss told me tat my pay increment has been approved by the new zealand HR department le.oh my god, i will be receiving 1.5 times the pay i am getting her hour now. and i reali canot believe this cos i have never been paid so high before.but the stupid thing is tat those new zealand HR still wants to go through the agent,which is not necessary cos my contract has already ended le by 4th april and yet they still want to continue and pay them when they could actually not pay them at all. but bo chap la, since they want to pay more for nothing, just let them be.who cares if they want to pay more,as long as i can get higher pay now..hehe..my small boss also say that those HR ppl are reali dumb loh.yes, i totally agree with her too..haha.but never mind la since both parties are contributing to my CPF then i get to benefit in the end =)

but the sad part is i can onli get this rate for onli 3 weeks cos after that i got to leave the company le since the perm staff will be here le.and there goes my high pay le.oh my god, i reali canot imagine how much can i earn for OT.wah, i believed that i will veri happy to work OT..haha.

hmm..meanwhile i shall try to look out for a job for the time being so tat i can start work once the contract ends.and now, i realised tat i am getting more and more lazy at work cos i will take on own sweet time to drink milo before starting work and nowadays i keep coming to work late. Which means pay deductions. i always make it a point to wake up early but i always go bac to sleep even though my alarm clock has rung.phew,i am so tired todae and my piano student wants to change timing again.hai~sian man.. its a toture teaching her..

~i was quite enjoyable with him..hehe.~

last thur was seriously a terrible day for me cos i have so much work to do til i have to do OT.heng, some of the work my colleague help me finish off, else i might onli be able to go off at 7pm.nevertheless i wont complain working extra hours since i am paid for OT wat.so who cares..
fri was a public holiday.initally wanted to nuah at home do my brother scholarship cos its reali piling more and more work for me to settle for him and some of the deadline is nearing, so i reali need to finish up watever i owe him and send it out to the scholarship place.after which, afternoon went out to shop first before meeting CH for church service. yeah, bought 2 shirts on tat day,one dress and one top.and it was on sale !! yeah =) initally was supposed to meet him @ 4pm de at expo control station, but his camp book out time was delayed, so ended up meeting at 6.30 pm like tat.yeah, he brought his parents along to watch the drama tat the CHC church has staged up for performance.seriously i think tat their sound system is reali damn gd, just like watching a concert..that nite, i hardly got any chance to talk to him since his parents was around and we veri long never see each other liao, so i was hoping tat i could at least get some chance to talk to him.but looks like he is busy accompanying his mum, so i chatted with his other friend's instead.and tat day,i took glances of him when everyone has to pray with their eyes closed.hehe cos he look veri nice and shuai with his eyes closed.-diao- qm is reali going crazy soon man, tat time i almost reali fall in love with him, but ended up having a crush on him for a short while.heng man.but he shouldnt be back again cos i have made myself forgotton him le, and suddenly he contact me again.hai~but i cant make him sense tat i like him before, cos else things will be veri awkward.but i myself also find amusing tat i am willing to go for church service when i hate to listen to preaching talks and i reali go church service just for him.oh no, tat's not qm cos i am not like tat de.anyway i will try to stay as far as possible as him cos i reali want to forget him !!haiz~
sat was another scolding and nagging session from my piano teacher again.hai~ sian, i am just turning a deaf ear to watever he says cos he always like to scold and nag at me de loh.i think practically every lesson i got to endure his never ending nagging.after tat continue to do my brother scholarships.seriously i am reali pissed doing all these stuff for him cos it seems never ending de loh, and i becos of tat i never have the time to do my own things and the 2 vcd tat i borrowed from my student have yet to watched at all.sian man.
sun was quite an enjoyable day for me cos going for chalet birthday..but the disappointing thing is tat the buffet wasnt tat nice,but taste still edible la.wat shocked me was the birthday guy went for a complete makeover til i cant recognised its him cos he dyed his hair and the clothes he wear is reali not his usual style of wearing.but anyway he still looks nice tat night.yeah, on my way to the chalet saw ben at city hall mrt stop so we took the train together and chatted the entire journey til we reach paris ris.after which we took a shutter bus to aloha chalet.yes, on the journey chatted with him quite alot mostly on uni stuff and the grades tat i have gotton this time.haha, why is everyone giving me tat look when i told him i fail gp again.ben was like saying tat : " if i were u ,then i would bang myself.."haha, i laugh out in amusement cos i reali never pass gp in my entire 4 yrs jc before, so its not surprising i fail gp in A levels,despite my 2nd round of taking A levels. but yeah, tat chat with the eye candy in the bus was kinda nice feeling.haha, but i must say he has became more matured since the day i knew him =) and this eye candy always teased me as "ghost " becos of my name and yesterday i was wearing bright red since the theme for the bday was bright colours.and he said tat i am a ghost who is seeking for revenge,lohz.he see too much ghost movies and shows liao la.but anyway we still ended up chatting happily la though he and his another friend always like to tease me..
anyway yesterday they ask me if i am celebrating for my bday or not and my ans was a firm no.sigh, i think i have disappointed my friends,but i thought of it liao if i relai wan to celebrate. who should i invite for celebration? yeah and my house is so empty, cant possibly hold a celebration at my house rite and moreover my mum dun like ppl to come to our house for gathering for many various reasons, so its unlikely.anyway i think they are going to hold a celebration for me instead,but i reali feel bad abt it cos i should be the one who is treating ppl instead of the other way round. =( ..haha, but this yr i do hope for some present.hopefully a nice big fashionable bag or mp4 or some other practical things tat i can use oftenly.hehe..but one of my wish is to see him again.as to who is him, i guess no one knows except me.i still kept the things tat he gave to me.tat small converse grey bad tat he has given me as a christmas present is still not used yet cos i wan to keep it as a memo.hai~ if he can talk to me at least one sentence, then tat would be my greatest present le cos its been many many yrs le and i haven heard any news of him.i have no idea how is he doing, but i believed he should be fine =) anyway 2-3 weeks to 21 yrs old soon.haha, can get to enjoy lots of previleges which i cant get earlier on when i am 20.cheers ppl !

~it shocking to hear tat.~

Work is kinda loaded for the past 2 days. sian.but i can work OT then can earn extra money,something which can be quite gd abt.yeah, yesterday finally seen my student le after so many many weeks.the agent is kinda "fann" in the sense tat she kept on asking me for her commision when i haven even gotton my pay yet!! ok, there goes my $50 to her for recommending students to me.anyway mt student came to explain to me abt why she cant make it for lesson the previous time.she told me tat she and her friends are some sort ended up in the police station cos of some fights or watever shit la, but she claims tat she is not an lian.and she told me tat now she has a bad record le.oh man, i reali canot imagine such things happening to her cos she reali dun look like such pl at all.ok,tat's seriously damn bad.but i wont condemn her de just becos she got a bad record now, cos i will still continue teaching her ..but one thing tat pissed me off is she dun practise and touch the piano at all.she onli plays piano when i come her house to teach.aiyo then like wat how to improve man, like tat i think she can take forever to master playing the basic piano pieces.
todae i wore a white dress to work cos wanted to try something new.yeah, as usual i cant be bothered to dress nicely de cos lazy la, then when i reached office today,everybody was like "wa...wat's the special ocassion today.."haha,but i still feel like i look like a nurse or a lab tech where those scientists wore those white lab coats.ok, i am seriously tired today, weekend will be a long one since tml is holiday! hooray..probably might be going out on this weekends too.. =)

~get" bullied " again~

todae i finally knows who complains abt me tat time le.hai~i am upset to hear tat its actually one of my close colleague tat i like the most among the rest of them,but it was an indirect way of saying me la. cos she didnt pin point it was me, but all of ppl says tat she is trying to say abt me in an indirect way.hai~ why are ppl like tat de loh, i thought they are nice and friendly in front of u, but actually they are not reali so..but after tat they found a joke on her cos she made a mistake while trying to complain tat i am slow in releasing the SOL..the mistake tat she made was she went to the wrong screen,so obviously forever the sale orders cant be released wat.so moral of the story is she has made the mistake and i am not slow in any way.-bleah-
i reali look forward to the orentation cos i can play and go bac sch enjoy uni days before i stepped into society offically to work.sigh.working life is indeed not easy man.though mentally u will feel relaxed,but physically, its not..
Actually i duno if he is still working in NTU or not cos i am reali clueless where he is now.but i reali hope tat i can see him in ntu,be it by chance or far away glance of him will do. tat's the onli request tat i hope to get cos i reali wan to know if he is getting on fine or not.nope, i have no other intention le cos i have no feelings for him le, just wanna to be concern for him as a friend onli.afterall he is once tat i like alot. and yes, luv him too,but it was in the past.perhaps for now, i am not fit to say "Love" this word cos its been ages and yrs since i am attached and i have lost the feelings to love.

~i am reali sorry abt it~

fri my boss told me she has managed to fight for me to extend my contract til end of april since my contract ending on 9th april.and now she says maybe now my pay might be higher le..wah, shoik man, at least i no need get tat pathetic pay for each month le.but for this special previlges onli last for 3 weeks la,which is something tat is sad to say,after tat i got to start searching for job again.fri after office hours,also drank abit of beer in office since i wanted to try out how it tastes like,So drank slips of it,so for those tat i cant finish, i pass it to my the other colleague tat likes to drink alot.yeah, she is one of the colleague tat i am closer with cos she is veri nice.though she always give me lots of work to do, but surprising i am not angry with her at all.haha.
weekend was supposedly to go out on a "date" with jin yi de to sun tan at sentosa de,but becos i was reali busy so i cancelled the date,changed to this fri,but i guess he dun wan tanned liao cos i not "on" at all cos i told him i die die also wont wear bikini to wear, and i die die will onli wear my top to tan, but he say if i wearing top to tan,then he dun wan to tan le..wa lao it sounds reali like my fault la for not being so "on"..but its my business wat i am to wear to tan mah,it doesnt concern any of his business at all.he can strip all he wan, and i wouldnt laugh at him de even if he got a big and ugly tummy, i wont dare to laugh de cos i will hold on to my laughter,i know tat i am a wet blanket,but somehow i feel forced that he is controlling my dressing attire. sat and sun was reali busy with the application of the uni procedures and settling my brother scholarships stuff and it has haven up all my entire weekends.lohz,my brother scholarship application is so much to settle tat all my weekends are taken up for him and still i haven completed for him..ok, its such a headache for me cos i got my own things to settle also.so, i am reali kinda busy lately.
lately have been quarreling with my mum reali often cos she just pissed me off.first was her friend.she was angry with me cos she has broken off ties with her friend le and yet i still talk to her when her friend calls me on my mobile to talk to me.so she is kinda bu shuang abt it cos she complaines tat why is it i pick up unknown calls when i dun even pick up her phone call.aiya i got my own reason for doing so cos she is super fann and irritating cos whenever she calls me, the usual things tat i get is scoldings and nagging.after tat she will scold me on my piano progressions.wa lao leh, i hear liao also sian man.i am seriously sick of this never ending argument such tat at times i reali dun feel like talking to her and turning a deaf ear to watever she says.at times i am so pissed tat i ignored her. to me, i feel tat if u wan ppl to respect u then u should learn how to respect ppl first.she always yell and shout at me for small matters, tat's just showing ppl irrespect behaviour, and i reali dun like her attitude,.tat's the reason also why i am nicer to my dad cos at least my dad respect me.so wat u are not going to just me a single cent for my uni education,i dun believe i cant find money on my own and pay bac the tuition fees for uni.
yesterday nite also happen an unforunate and upset thing but thank god tat everything is ok now.actually its becos i was too crude in saying things liao and i think i have offended ppl without realising tat i have said the wrong things.yeah, as usual i am tat insensitive and moreover i am not gd with words at all, so make this friend of mine angry.but still i wan to apologized for tat cos perhaps i must have hurt him ba..though it wasnt my intention to mean wat i said cos i dun think tat far and in depth as him.so he guess misunderstanding arises between us ba. so moral of story is : qm has bad inference skills and is insensitive and shallow minded.." but i will jia you to learn more and aquire more knowledge ! cos i relai dun wan to be a frog in the well.

~it doesnt pay to be nice to ppl~

yesterday i called my student for so many times, but yet her hp is off,so i was kinda pissed off cos i sent her an impt msg but she didnt reply me regarding the changing of the lesson to next week since it would be veri rush for her and i scared she will be tired out by so many tuitions tat her mum arranged for her.so, i decided to call up her house though i am not veri willing to do so cos i dun like to call ppl's house de.yeah,it was her mum who picked up,so i told her to inform her daughter loh.but duno why out of the sudden her daugther msg me after work,telling me to come yesterday at a later time instead cos she say got somethings happen and got police come.lohz, duno why she got so many excuses de loh and all so kua zhang one.first was cousin hospitalized in hospital,sec time was sch camp..she kept on saying sorry,but i wan some actions to be done!not kept on saying sorry..hai~she say tat "teacher pls dun give up on me.i reali feel like saying, ya sooner or later i will.."

~i have a title in my job! tat's surprising!~

yesterday went to visit yk at tan tock seng hospital since he was down with dengue fever.yes, it was tat seriously..but he is on his way to recovery le, so glad for him.talking abt the journey to his ward,its super ulu and isolated la.not to mention tat its quite errie too..me and jun yi had a hard time searching for the place cos its reali totally out of the tan tock seng building though it is claimed to be tan tock seng's ward.yeah,tat's reach home kinda late le since TTHS is kinda far from my house.yesterday becos my student wanted to cancel lesson AGAIN and postphone to todae,tat's why can go visit yk de.anyway she is kept apologizing to me,but i feel its excuses la.anyway i cant be bothered to angry with her too cos i am used to her pattern liao.so its not surprised tat she wanted to change lesson again and again for countless times liao.but todae i decided tat since she wants me to come early to teach her but timing wise abit cant be fixed since i got work leh.its not as if i am not working like tat.so i cant possibly take leave just to teach her.so i told her tat i cant come to teach her and forgo tat one lesson's fees tat i could earn actually.
todae one of my colleague was telling me tat my title was promoted to customer service manager and it was published on the net.she say tat she is envy of me but surprising i dun feel anything happy abt this promotion from a customer service representative to customer service MANAGER.lohz,though the name sounds reali nice ah, but seriously speaking i still duno lots of stuff lah,if fact my the other colleagues are the ones helping me to "Clear my inquires from the customer.."so there is reali nothing to be proud abt..i am reali scared those ppl will be jealous of me cos i think their heart might think tat its unfair..but i reali cant be bothered abt such things de cos its so lame man.moreover i am a temp too and i will be leaving in 1.5 months.so cant be bothered to be engaged in this company ranking policy.come on, maybe i am more hardworking in picking up phone call onli and finishing up my work on time,but i seriously was shocked to see my title as customer service.ok,but i am reali scared tat in future they might not want to help me =(

~what an unlucky day~

last fri went bac sch to collect results then i reali find it unbelivable that the security guard uncle recognised me, so i got the permission to enter sch without showing my ic cos he knows tat i am ex yj student.yeah, it was said tat onli 1989 and 1988 students are allowed to enter the sch, but i am 1987, then how can i go in then? but i am pretty shocked tat the security uncle can recognised me..haha.possibly i got an easy face to remember ba.or either everyone in sch recognised me by tat complicated plaits that i always tie to sch in order not to be caught by teachers by dyeing hair.haha, i cant believed tat i actually escaped from the teachers for the entire 9 months.anyway some teacher also bo chap abt me la.anyway fri i am reali veri veri sway la cos shoes suddenly spoil on my way to work and worst still, i got to go bac sch collect results.ok, wat a "lucky" day man.so i walk around the office bare footed and its so malu lah !! all my colleagues are asking me why am i walking around without shoes.so i tell them the reason loh and tat only guy colleague look at my feet and seriously i am so embarrassed and malu man. 2 of my collegague volunteer to lend me their sandals that they usually wore in office.haha, so glad abt tat, else i reali got no shoes to go bac sch..
yesterday work was kinda busy til i am the onli kelian one that has to do OT cos the rest of the ppl in my department has went home le,even my small boss who is in charged of me.yeah, the sales person that i am working under for was reali glad and happy that i have completed a task which she wanted to do in the night since she was on mc yesterday.so i volunteered to complete her work for the customer (though i was reali busy yesterday)..heng customer didnt complain abt anything and in fact she was glad tat i can take over her to settle her problem.yup,actually its nothing much abt helping my colleague la.since its within my capability to help of cos i am willing to help her.moreover i believe tat she is busy enough,so this kind of small issues i should be able to handle ba.another thing why i am so willing to help her is becos i felt tat she is quite a nice person la and she is quite friendly towards me,unlike others which are not reali tat friendly towards me cos in their eyes, i am onli a xiao mei mei..maybe they can be bothered to chat with me.yeah,recently i was given a nickname by the name of "ah min" and even the big boss is calling me "ah min" now.lohz..ok,actually it doesnt sound reali bad.ya,yesterday she did thanks me lots of times too la for helping her cos its becos of her,tat's why i got to work OT.but i told her its ok cos anyway i am paid wat..
then todae my colleague from my dept told me tat the sales dept ppl are gossiping tat i am veri slow in releasing the SOL,but duno who is the person who say tat la.wa lao hear liao also angry cos i always helped them create quotations which is not reali my business since i am not working under them and yet they still dare to complain abt me.if not for their so many quotations, i would have finished my SOL on time.damn it, it reali doesnt pay off to be nice man.so tat colleague of mine in my dept told me tat i need not help her do her work le cos she got to lighten my workload.ok loh, i think its even better for me man.at least i need not have to work so hard for others which doesnt concern my business at all.sian man,working life is reali complicated.who is reali nice to me and who is not, for now i am reali uncertain.one of the colleague from my dept doesnt seems like a person tat is easy to deal with and i think she is reali not an easy person.yeah, at times i am reali scared of her also cos sometimes i am insensititive and she will say me bac de.
todae i am rotting like siao cos i got no work to do and i have been slacking for 2 hrs le..

~3 cheers for me !! ~

its been quite a few days since i last blog le...so wat have i been busy with? tues i went out with JT for a movie at jp.yes, its been ages and yrs since i last stepped into a cinema with my friends.i think if i am not wrong should be around 2.5yrs to 3 yrs le ba..haha,lohz duno wat am i on earth losing touch with watching movies.anyway tat movie tat we watched was "L changed the world"..it was a jap thriller movie i feel.somehow tat movie protrays out its amusing part though it wasnt reali tat funny afterall,but the ppl in the theatre was laughing happily away..
ok wed and thur had resturant buffet at one go for consecutives days and i reali do feel fat after eating so much of it..actually there is also a buffet on fri too de, but i left early for sch to collect the results, so i didnt manage to eat tat buffet.whenever there are guests from overseas coming to our company, usually ppl like us,esp those from my dept feel happy cos there is nice buffet to eat.hehe,i am quite a glutton too cos i do eat alot despite knowing tat i am quite fat already.but i always have this policy saying tat "eat first,later then worry abt it.." and eventually i usually regretted for eating so much..wed and thur was a terrible day for me cos one of my colleague is on medical leave and i have to clear up her mess and worst still, thur one of my the other colleague comp spoil and i need to help her settle things on her behalf..damn it,tat thur i was damn pissed off cos i got so many things to do and i feel reali frustrated when one of my colleague is on leave and the other one comp spoil.seriously i dun understand why this colleague of mine always like to take medical leave de loh..its been so many times since i joined the company 2 months bac.i have never taken any leave before except for the released of the results.other and tat, even if i am sick, i still drag myself to work loh though i am still quite unwilling.wed was also another angry day for me cos i felt tat i was taken for granted for being nice to my student.yes, wed i rush immediately to my student "house" despite haven finish my work and when i reached her home, i was told tat my student has went off for a camp for johor le.damn, she didnt even told me abt it and i just happily went there.her mum was feeling reali sorry abt it for her daugher not informing me, so she told me tat i can claim my taxi fares.but who xi nan for her taxi fares claim man..i just dun like the irresponsible acts of my student.anyway this is the sec time she is doing this on me, if she continues to be like this, i reali give up teaching her liao.tat time was helping her to lie to her mum, now wat??
fri was the release of results.seriously duno why i am not panic and worried at all..in fact i dun feel anything and continue to go work as usual.and as i predicted tat day i will surely given lots of work and yes, i was right...when i wanted to pack up and leave the office, i was asked to do this and tat for the guests, eg helping them to book taxis..so i was delayed in leaving the office.as to why i dun feel anything seems reali unusual of me.maybe i have gone through all these tough times countless times le and probably i have gotton used to the failure life.tat day also received quite a couple of msg wishing gd luck for me.yeah, i was quite happy abt it though if results arent gd,wishing u also wont change the grade,but nevertheless it is sincerity tat counts la and i am reali glad to receive those wishes from my friends.but least among tat i expected tat one of my guy friend actually called me up to extend his wishes when we rarely reali talked much.ya, sometimes life is always so unpredictable.actually i was told tat the teachers have known our results early in the morning and i was "begging" this teacher to drop hints if i can enter uni..but he die die also refused to tell me my grades, all he said was "Should be able to enter uni ba.."ok so i feel glad after hearing tat and i waited patiently for 2.30pm for the results to be out offically.well,results are quite ok this time round, except for tat stupid gp cos i fail gp AGAIN !! but i am reali glad tat i didnt get E8 or worst cos that would cost my uni application to be denied even though my grades are quite alright.well, maybe its just my lousy fate tat i have to take english brigding course in uni.actually seriously speaking, i dun feel happy at all for achieving such grades..duno why either..probably i expected better grades than this since i took 4 yrs jc.if i were to get this grade in 2 yrs jc, then i would be veri delighted.maybe that's the reason why i dun feel anything after receiveing the results.though now i have better chance of choosing a course rather than the course choosing over me,but somehow i still duno wat i reali want to study.in fact i am studying just for the sake of getting a cert and not being passionate abt studying.and i am reali headache abt the fees for uni now cos its not a few hundred dollars.in fact its thousand dollars onwards.the issue is where can i find money to pay for it? even if i work i also cant pay for the huge sum for every sememsters.die liao lah.mum and dad also no money,tat's the worst thing to hear.ok, i shall be determined for now and find my own ways to pay the tuition fees.hai~
seriously i am reali veri happy tat i have finally gotton a chance to step into ntu le,which has longed to be my dream sch since young and i have told myself tat i have finally did it though my route was reali a tough and uncertain one.at least all those determination and perserverance didnt get paid off..and i still left with 4 yrs to go..i believe tat this 4 yrs will not be a easy one,probably might be tougher than wat i have experienced in jc.but i told myself tat i must jia you on no matter wat..ok, tat nite after i gotton my results, one of my colleague asked me if i wan to join them for dinner at some "resurant" at bukit timah for dinner. i thought for reali long if i wanted to join them cos i did consider if i am reali suitable to go for such places cos its super high class and i have bad eating habits.yeah, this was my first time entering such high class place and i believed tat i can never book such a place cos hiring the pianist and guitarist alone cost $1000++ le just for a few hours.wa lao, i was so shocked when i hear this.kay,this is also my veri first time eating italian food cos i have never tried before.well. judging from the dishes tat they serve,its obvious tat all these food are reali ex but one gd news is tat company is paying for it.so i will be eating free of charge..haha.tat nite also drank abit of red wine though i dun reali like,but i have no choice cos they kept saying "Cheers.."even the chefs was saying me tat my glass of wine hasnt been touched at all cos i onli drink slips of it.yeah, i know i am wasting such ex drinks,but cant be help cos i dun like to drink.well, after the interactions, i reali feel tat i am a frog in a well cos it seems tat i am veri stupid cos everything also duno.whereas they seems to be veri knowledgable and knows lots of things.yeah, many at times i find tat my frequency and their frequencies reali different world apart.well,all i can do is to acquire more knowledge in my working life for now loh.
next wk i was asked for a tanning date with this guy at sentosa,but dun he feel shy at all..???lohz.even if he is not shy, i will feel shy seeing him stripping in public.and the most qian bian thing is he asked me to prepare my bikini.lohz..i "scolded" him a pervert cos i will never ever wear a bikini in this life,maybe in my next life when i got a super model figure.for now, my figure is reali CMI..haha.

~fate gonna decided on fri~

yesterday the news announched tat the A level results will be out this fri..yes,my fate is going to be decided on this day le..acually i am not veri scared now.the onli subject tat i am reali reali scared and worried for is my gp.duno why no matter wat, i can never pass gp and the day when i pass gp will be just once in a blue moon and those pass is just those barely borderline case.in short,my grades for gp is just veri jialat.
ever since from last wed,this wanted man has ecaped from the detention centre and somehow he has yet been caught.yeah and now the police are imposing a search warrant throughout the entire whole nation.seriously such serious thing is my first time experiencing in spore cos this guy is quite dangerous. and wat stunned me today when i took a bus to work tat time was actually i saw a poster of the arrest warrant of this malay guy pasted at the glass of the bus door.yeah,everyone was quite curious wat is it all abt and can see tat they are reading through tat notice poster carefully.yeah,i think the guy is someone who is smart and has lots of brain.else,usually given the effectiveness of the police force,usually one whould be caught within days le.
hai~starting from this wk onwards, i will be quite busy le.got to handle my brother appllication uni stuff,his sholarship and my application for my uni stuff too.but thinking too much now doesnt help at all cos everything can onli be decided once the results are out.

~The kinda boring talk~

sat i was reali too tired liao..eyes feel super pain even after a sleep..ended up i went for piano lesson with a sleepy and tired mind.so tat day since i was too tired to do anything,just laze around chiong-ing my vcd.yes,so happy tat i am going to finish watching liao.then the next morning, which is a sun tat day, had to wake up reali early like normal working days.yes, its 6am and my mum was asking why i need to go out so early for wat..i didnt tell her the truth tat i am going for a relious talk at 9am and got to meet mr wong and yj they all at 8am.ok, i was quite sian to go for such talks cos i cant appreciate such things de and moreover i am not sincere and devoted towards relligion,so its kinda not possible for me to reali xiu dao..yes, there will not be a day tat i will xiu dao.i think i would rather be a free thinker though i am a buddhist myself but i was forced to follow since young, so there isnt choice for tat.seriously for tat talk, for abt 90%, i am switch off cos i think the chinese too chime to understand liao.ok,after mr wong send us to sengkang mrt station, by coincidence saw tat mr smiley teacher whom used to be my yr 1 jc phy teacher.acually i didnt saw him de, but when i see how come this guy was smiling to me, then i recalled tat he used to be the teacher tat lots of female students admire and likes..haha.yeah, he still has tat smiley face..but i am reali surprised tat he still rmb me cos i am not an outstanding student in class and sometimes i dun even pay attention in his class.duno sometimes also fall asleep in class too.haha.so now i know he lives in sengkang cos he was wearing his home clothes waiting for the bus..thinking bac, he feel tat he is reali a nice teacher who dun get angry at all, but teaching wise reali CMI..after which went to bugis with jy for angela autogragh session de, but it was cancalled somehow.so eventually when to pray at the temple.yeah, i got a bad lot when i ask for something from the budda.actually i do feel sad when i see tat bad description, but i told myself it might not be true cos sometimes wat is written in tat lot isnt tat true at all.ok,this week gonna prepared for the worst liao.cos results will reali be coming out,most prob on this fri liao.gd luck to me then.i hope if tat day i will be crying will also becos i am too happy over my results.
ok,yesterday there is this cat sitting outside my doorstep and i was so shocked tat i scream out cos as usual i am still scared of animals mah and moreover tat cat is super stubborn and fat to leave my doorstep.had a hard time making it leave my doorstep.
ok i am equally tired todae.