~i am getting fat!!~

oh no,i think i am getting fatter and fatter day by day cos i kept eating non stop in office.somehow everyday there is anyway nice food or junk food to make me stay awake throughout the entire day.everyday there is free flow of cookies and muffins to eat and u can eat until sian those type.yesterday and todae got restaurant buffet in our supply centre, a place for customers can chill out..yeah,tat's a reali nice place la, where u can brew ur own coffee with an expensive coffee brewer.though i have been working in this office for quite some time, but yet i didnt wan to try out the coffee though the coffee smell reali great..ok, my eyes are reali pain after staring the comp for so many many hours.ok, i think my eyesight is getting worst liao cos now i tend to see things with two images.oh no..hai...
todae i think i should have offended my colleague accidently cos i laugh and smile non stop when tat cleaner auntie says tat she wears skirt quite nice..in actual fact everyone's mentality is tat she looks kinda weird in skirt cos she reali walks like a tomboy lah and her actions just depicts a guy.oh no, when i realised tat i shouldnt laugh out like wat i usually did in sch cos its working life now, not schooling life,but tat was too late cos her face suddenly turned black at tat instant..oh no,tat's the instant when i realised tat i am reali veri rude and insensitive..ok, wat has done has already done,cant be helped liao.at most i will treat it as a learning lesson then and in future i will try to smile less loh when ppl are gossiping.hai~..why is working life so complicated de man..actually i did want to say sorry to her de, but duno how should i put it in words,.aiya ppl who knows me well do know tat i dun mean it de loh..hai~sian.
this weekend will be a busy week for me.sian.i have yet to get a birthday present for my friend yet despite i went for shopping yesterday.actually i dun reali like going for the birthday celebration tml cos i am sick of going for so many birthday celebration le.all seems the same to me loh..
sun got to meet up with jy and a teacher for preaching lesson.another sian event again.so sorry to say tat..

~big shot ppl @ company~

todae got lots of big shots ppl from other regions of our company branch coming down to spore for meeting.yeah, so i was told to dress nicely since yesterday i wore slipper to work.haha,i think i am realli the bold one who likes to wear slipper to work.although one shouldnt wear slipper to work cos its office hours and one should dress correctly,but i still bo chap la.actually i have wore slipper quite a couple of times to work liao and since big boss didnt say anything so i continue to wear it loh..ok,so todae decided to wear a skirt instead of the usual jeans.its been a long time since i last wore a skirt..somehow i do feel a bit weird and uncomfortable in skirt..haha.
todae work seems pretty ok cos my colleagues are busy entertaining those guests,so i got less work to do.kay,tml will be super stress cos its month end liao and everyone needs to clear everyday.though i am not reali affected cos i doubt those ppl will approached me to do work for them since i duno anything.ok,tml i shall be more alert and try not to disturb them so far, else i might kana get scolded.i predict tml lots of ppl will have black face hai~
ok i better to be prepared for next week liao cos i am confirm tat next week results will be out le..hai~hopefully things wil go well for me cos i have encounter so much obstacles liao and i have enough of it le..though i always tell myself tat as long as one dun get discouraged and if u are willing to learn from mistakes,then things will certainly goes well de.but are you sure abt tat? to me tat's still quite questionable..

~why am i helping her to lie man..~

yesterday my student called me at nite to tell me tat todae she cant make it for the piano lesson cos her cousin was hospitalized.ok, i shall accept her reason cos anyway i need a break too la, since she initiated to take a break todae, so its fine with me loh.but duno why she wanted me to lie to her mum tat its me who cant make it for the lesson NOT her..wa lao like tat abit unfair to me loh cos like tat i will leave a bad impression on her mum cos first few times of lesson wan to take break liao.ok,but eventually i still help her lie to her mum,but i seriously feel reali guilty abt it.i thought for veri long before calling her mum cos i wanted to think carefully how should i talk to her mum abt this and i am veri scared tat my her will ask abt her progression so i better plan wat she will ask before it shocks me.lately, i have been sleeping reali late,around 1am like tat,not becos i hardworking and study like wat,but becos i was watching this taiwan drama tat my student lend me..ok, jialat i reali addicted to watching vcd liao and , i rarely can take my eyes off the tv and i can reali sit there for hours just to watch tat show.ok, i am reali a tv freak and becos of this, lately my dark rings became reali dark man and i am always sleepy during work sia.at times i reali got so sian tat i have to take a short 5min eye break inside the toilet.heng at least the toilet smells still ok, else i wouldnt wan to stay in there either..
hai~sian,this wk reali broke liao.got to spend money for 2 birthday present and its in the same wk lah..aiyo..and i am cluessness as to wat to buy for marilyn cos i rarely buy friend's birthday present on my own since i usually belong to those tat onli chip in money and the rest is all decided by my fellow friends.actually this sat got 3 meeting place to attend to de.but i choose to go for my sec sch friend's birthday celebration.actually i have a dinner with my last yr graduated classmates at my civic tutor's house but i turn them now cos i already promised my friend tat i will come for the birthday celebration.actually one of the reason tat i dun feel like going for the dinner is tat i am not close with my yr 4 classmates la, actually without me also makes no different loh.anyway if i go there also will be alone de.so dun go will be the best choice as it will save me from all those lonliness.but i am reali truefully grateful to my last yr teacher cos she is reali veri nice to me despite tat i am the onli one taking the old syllabus in class and yet she didnt neglect me..
I realised tat lately my company got lots of company policies.though in front of u,they may seems to be ok with u but behind ur bac, they tend to complain to ppl like anything.though they didnt say anything abt me, but i was down there having lunch and they keep complaining abt those big boss and he ppl in the sales dept.ok,tat's just life,i think i gonna learn more from now on..

~Why is it so hard to say a happy birthday..~

this week i am finally going bac to my normal self le..phew, thank god.last wk my mind is just in a swirl and my mind is totally damn messed up.yesterday was my mum birthday and my dad purposely bought her a "small cake" to hong her and tell her tat i told him to buy on behalf of me.so my dad wans me to wish my mum happy birthday,but duno why i couldnt say this happy birthday wish to her..afterall we always argue adn quarrel and suddenly my dad wan me to say nice things to her,somehow it seems to be abit weird and funny.yeah, u know,its tat kind of feeling tat cant be reali explained.
talking abt going on dates,if i were to like a guy, no matter how tired am i, i would die die also drag myself there so as to see him.yes,tat's the power of having a crush..hehe.its been a long time since i last seen his msg and yes, msg i just gotton a msg from him.ok, i thought it was something great,but to my disappointment it turn out likewise.hai~ok,i shouldnt ponder so much le,anyway i have told myself tat i got to wake up my idea liao ever since tat time he said something without realising my feelings.ok,today workload is super much.damn,not even a single chance to slack at all.sian man.

~still lost as ever before~

last fri was went off early since i had something on..so i told my small boss tat i had to leave by 4pm.so to earn bac tat 1 hour pay, so i sacrifices my lunch break to work..but to say the truth, i didnt work at all since all of them are out for lunch, so i decided to slag before they come bac for lunch.ok, but heng eventually i managed to rush finish my work before i leave.else, i doubt i will leave with guilt.
Sat went for ntu talk @ suntec..ok, the talk was quite similar to last yr's presentation slides..somehow the talk refresh my memory of wat the course was all about cos last yr i went there with a veri blur mind cos i dun even know anything abt any course.but this yr at least i am clearer abt wat does the course require u to study.well, i am still as lost as before.wat should i do man?and i realised tat money is veri impt now cos i doubt i will be able to pay for my uni fees if i am given a chance to enter uni.jialat,not to mention tat my parents has no money at all.then wat should i do also?? the money tat i earn now are reali peanuts and not even enough to pay for the tuition loan.hai~so many troubles tat cant be solved within my capability.must i must say tat one of the lecturer for the talk is super boring and his voice is so "sweet" tat i almost fall asleep.but i realised tat somehow i listening compreh has improved ever since these 1.5months of customer service training.at least i can understand ppl wat they wan esp for those with slang.for wat, tat particular lecturer has a heavy indian slang and seriously last yr i couldnt understand at all.but this yr, i can understand better le.=) actually last sat last min got date with jin yi de.but i dun feel like going cos my day quite pack le and after the so many hours of talks reali make tired sia.actually i do feel awarkward going out with him la, so this is one reason tat i dun wan meet up with him..haha,.i am quite bad right?
yesterday had a quite bad quarrel with my mum.aiya she is unreasonable again and so i in a fit of anger bao chou on her..i purposely anger her by not giving her face since my dad says tat we go out eat together to celebrate her bday but i die die also refuse to go.then i think she is super angry with me tat she got bac the ang bao tat she gave me.aiya,who cares,as if i cares for tat small money..lohz..ok la, actually i do have my fault too la.
ok todae is super busy and tired.work for non stop.sian.

~Damn it !!! ~

sian man, working life is reali veri veri sian !!! i think i am starting to be a robot cos everyday also do the same thing until i am reali super sian of it liao..hai~everyday i would repeat the same old steps again and again and up to now my hands and fingers have yet to recover.somehow it still feel quite painful and suan..sigh..and yesterday that student of mine made me wait for around 35 min..wah sian loh,if she is late, then at least she should inform me wat..she didnt even inform me and made me wait for so long ..her maids are kinda apologetic towards me, but i told them its ok la.but in future at least should tell me so tat at least i need not have to rush after work until like wat just to reach her "House" on time mah..anyway i think she is reali quite spoiled by her parents.yes, i think her parents are super damn rich cos yesterday i wanted to go to the toilet so her maid brought me to her parents' room and i was reali shocked to see how big and nice the room is..oh my god, i almost couldnt believe it cos it just seems to be like some palace and all their futnitures are super high class and imported from those countries de..oh my god, i think her mum's room is half tat of my HDB flat la..ok i think i cant never get to enjoy such gd life man, unless i marry a rich guy..haha.ok, i am dreaming too much,
weekend is reali coming liao..ok shoik man, at least i can rest again..sat got to go for some ntu talk @ suntec,hopefully from there can let me find out more abt my interest and wat i want to study..lohz, i think even if u give me how many yrs to think carefully abt wat i reali want to study..my ans would still be the same cos i am lost as usual..sun i shall stay at home to chiong watch some taiwan vcd serial tat my student lent it to me..next weekend wil be a busy week for me..got birthday celebration to attend to and meet up with my yj phy tutor..ok,actually i am abit sian to go for tat thing on sun but i think it would be bad again if i were not to turn up again for the thing.
jialat man, i think i am reali "sick" now cos something is very very wrong with me..oh man,this is worst than liking someone.ok, i better get out of this weird thoughts,else i reali got to do something abt it.sigh..
results will be out reali soon,yes high chance tat it will be next week cos tat will be end of feb liao..oh no, i reali dare not look at my result slip again.wat if i got a D7 for gp again then i will reali faint man.ok, though D7 is not veri bad to the extent tat u cant enter uni, but its just tat NUS will be hard to enter unless u got veri gd grades for ur main subjects.haiZ~ why is it tat when u are working, u would think bac how sch is like and think bac how nice it was if i were to go bac sch study..anyway i am going to be jobless again after april when my contract ends.

~Headache...~

i am veri headache now cos i think i have run out of things to teach her.hai~and i think i got to wake up my idea liao cos i find myself reali something wrong this time..oh man..i think i am reali a sicko..

~video on their so call "indian dance"

~gathering at zheng quan's house~

Me and tanu
me,maril and yi hui
smile =)
me and maril again

last weekend was a busy weekend for me.last sat morning went for piano lesson.surprising tat freaking piano teacher of mine turn out to be quite nice to me tat day..duno why,at least he didnt scold me.haha,maybe chinese new yr still on, perhaps he find tat new yr scold ppl not too gd..after tat proceeded to zheng quan house for cny gathering.oh my god,everyone change so much.tat yi hui couldnt even recognise her liao cos of her dramatic change.gosh..she suddenly became so ger now as compared to the sec sch days when she dun reali dress until so femine.and i realised something from this gathering.it seems tat most of the gers wear on make up now,as compared to the sec sch days when we rarely see them with make up.but make up reali do wonders cos everybody over there look kinda different with make up.haha, i am someone who is quite lazy to put on make up so i supposed i still look the same as before,just tat maybe face looks sharper now.hehe..yup,tat day just eat and gamble.haha, but i didnt gamble la, cos i know tat i will confirm lose money since i am quite bad in gambling.and its kinda surprising tat quite a couple of my sec sch mates owns a car now.wah, tat cool..but seriously speaking, i dare not take a ride from them cos i find insecure taking their ride since they are quite new in driving..haha.
sun evening went for matilda 21st birthday celebration.wah, her celebration was kinda grand man..haha, i feel tat i am attending a wedding dinner cos we are sitted just like the wedding style where we are allocated to our respective seats and tables.ok matilda was super pretty and she reali look like a princess or rather a hollyhood star..oh man, i like her blue gown very much,i believe tat tat blue should be quite expensive ba.yeah, she was the centre of attraction tat nite since she is the birthday girl mah.and i am kinda amazed by indian dance cos they can reali shake their body well and move gracefully along with the music.haha, and our guy friends are sabo to be called up the stage to give a dance performance and somehow i find it kinda interesting and comical..haha.i shall attached a video and u all shall enjoy tat comical dance.yeah, it was supposed to be an indian dance, but it somehow turn out to be kung fu performance.lohz..but i think their performance reali made the audience laugh out reali until canot tahan.haha.and wat tat gave me a shock was mr garnesh was invited to her birthday party.oh man, maybe i should feel heng tat i am not sitted at the same table with him and his wife cos like tat i will feel veri stress de..though he is actually ok with me, but somehow tat stress level will still be there since afterall he is still a teacher.
hai~i am sorry to say to my fellow dearest friends tat i might not be opening a party to celebrate my birthday..reason becos the cost will be quite a lot and parents not sponsering.last of all i wan to say tat sorry for not giving u guys a treat..oh man, i think i am getting fatter day by day cos i always eat unstop in office de..whenever i am sian, i will walk around to eat cookies..oh no, this is damn fatting man.then yesterday i do envy those ppl who are attached cos after the celebration ends, their another half will pick them up and drive them home just for them.wah, so sweet man,and me being a pathetic sole got to long bang my friend's cab home.ok, todae's work is kinda slacked cos my tomboy colleague is on leave for todae and tml and so i can enjoy myself,but i think when she comes bac, work wil be like hell for me. =(

~fingers are still reali painful~

jialat man, my fingers are still reali painful and weak, like tat how can i play piano..hai~tml has piano lesson again.sian, got to see tat freaking teacher again. i bet he is going to scold and nag at me again as usual..but at least todae work is not tat chiong..at least i can take breaks in between and let my little fingers take some break too.i am worried for my eyesight too.sigh..eye is reali tired for long hours of computer starring..kay,tat's all for todae,i got to meet up cute agent liao.hehe

~my hands are freaking pain and tired~

lately my fingers and hand feel reali painful and suan after long hours of non stop typing.jialat man, now i play piano also feel pain.hai~i think now i am abit sian of admin work liao,probably after my contract finish i wan to change line liao.sian man, and my pay is kinda pathetic after deductions to CPF..hai~ duno how much i can save up for uni also, cos tat amt seems veri insignificant to the amt tat i need to pay for the study loan and interests.jialat man, i think next time i must set my expectation higher liao.else forever i cant earn much money de.seriously it feel shoik to have a personal comp cos i can do watever i am,haha, sometimes when i am sian i will tend to download songs or sometimes i will watch crunchyroll online secretly.loh, i think tat's veri bold of me.but i onli dare to watch crunchyroll when boss is not around la.if she is around, of cos i will behave myself de la.

~valentine 2008~

this yr valentine is as usual,no dates at all..haha, duno to feel sad or happy.but i do envy of ppl who receives bouquet of flowers.though i am someone who dun appreciates flowers and neither am i romantic at all,but i do hope to receive flowers on such events.haha.but too bad,i have no such luck to receive such things.then,today morning got delivery of flowers to my company and it was meant for a female colleagues.ya, 2 received two bouquet of flowers.wah, so sweet lah, so everyone in the company was kpo abt who sent it to her.and it turn out to be her bf and some other guy.the rest of my colleagues got no flowers,tat includes me.i think this company of mine quite cool man,all females and one pathetic male onli.and many at times, this particular tomboy colleagues of mine seems so cute la such tat at times i do feel attracted towards to her..haha,but i am certain tat i am still straight ! haha. and she is quite nice too, and i am happy working under her though many times she always give me lots of work to do, but duno why i dun feel fed up at all.
this week , tat big boss from australia came to our company for duno wat reason la, and heng i am not involve.phew..so this week kinda abit relax for me cos during their lunch time,nobody will be around, so i can "eat snake" a while, but somehow i realised tat wherever i "eat snake" , i tend to not finish my work at the end of the day.and it happens on mon..so tat day all the ppl in my dept has finished work liao, but i still owe my tomboy colleague work so i cant possibly go home first mah.so the boss from my dept asked me when i can finish and tat cleaner auntie keep hurrying me to go home cos both of them cant go home if i haven go home.such a weird logic right? so i told them tat they need not have to bother abt me and so i ask them to go first.but after tat my boss told me tat she cant let the temp (me) leave later than her mah since she is the boss and tat australia big boss is around too. i think as to why she said tat is becos she scared of malu and will lose face of the temp is more hardworking than anyone.but the truth is, i am not tat hardworking, i cant finish work cos i slack too much earlier on when they are not around.so have to stay bac to complete my work before i leave mah.anyway i feel tat in the working world, ppl are so fake la,always like to put up shows for ppl to see. but i wouldnt care de cos i still continue to do wat i am even when boss is around.
yesterday when i went to my student "house" to teach her piano, then the ppl over there thought tat i am her friend..loh..maybe i look too young liao lah.like tat reali canot man, i think i got to dress more matured esp when i go work cos else ppl wont respect u when u work.but i would rather look young than old =) cos women youth is the most important assets..initally tat tomboy colleague of mine thought tat i am underage.dots...tat's even worst..lohz..anyway yesterday my student gave me a small present as valentine gift..haha, its kinda sweet of her..but yesterday i am abit demoralized cos somehow my student find my lesson abit sian and dry..but no choice wat, i need to teach her the basic before she can proceed further.the feedbac tat she gave was i tend to teach alot of chime things.but i am already trying to teach easy stuff liao.i admit tat wat i taught her wasnt beginner standard, but afterall it would be for her gd to know more mah, cos learning too simple things wont benefit her de and moreover its not practical to learn too simple things becos its unlikely to get such simple piece in real life.anyway i am reali trying hard to teach her simple things liao, but to me i feel tat sometimes it hard to teach simple things cos u have been learning difficult things liao and somehow when u wan to teach easy things, then it will be hard.phew, hopefully everything will be a breeze ba cos whenever i think of teaching her, i will get headache as to how should i teach her in a simple way.jialat,somehow teaching isnt simple at all.hai~
this weekend will be all occupied le.sat cny gathering wit my secondary sch mates,sun got to attend friend's birthday celebration.mon dinner with a friend.lohz..everything in a roll,i think i will be dead beat.but i am still thinking if he wans to come out on sat then probably i might forgo my cny gathering ba. i duno wat's wrong with me la, but at times i do feel disappointed with him.sadded man.hai~
kay, i got to do my work liao, else i cant complete my work again !!

~first visiting for cny~

hai~sat nite i received a msg from my sec friends.i was invited to go for my sec 4 cny class gathering.though initally i did say tat i kinda miss my sec 4 close friends,but now i am considering if i wan to turn up for this gathering cos of various reasons.i think i am still not ready to tell them anything if they were to ask me where am i studying right now..duno why i still feel upset when ppl always ask me where am i studying right now..and this will leads to think bac how much time i wasted in a jc.i think results wil be out reali soon.hopefully it will be a gd one, else i reali duno how also.dad yesterday was also raising this issue to me as to wat will i do if this time round i still cant get into local uni.at tat pt of time i avoided this issue cos i dun feel like answering and thinking abt it.everything can onli be decided once the results will be out.just pray reali hard tat i can enter local uni this time round.private uni will be just impossible for me given my financial situation.
sun met up with my yr 1 jc friends for cny lunch at gin's house.haha, i love her mum's cooking.well, her mum can cook better than my mum at least and i love the cny kueh tat her mum made.those pineapples cookies and others taste so yummy..haha..yesterday gathering was kinda boring for me cos i duno how to play majong and so i decided to learn it yesterday.more birthday celebration coming up next week and the following month.jialat i better save up reali soon and spend more thrifty,else all my money will be gone.
sian man,everyone is out for lunch now with my boss from australia (an ang mo again) .so i am the onli one left in the company to pick up phone calls cos they say tat i need not go for the business lunch.heng man, i dun wan to go either cos i also dun udnerstand wat they talking abt also.sit there hear them talk also veri sian.i rather take a break in office while they are not around.haha.hai~and i realised tat more and more ppl are taking leave from my dept and tat;s kinda irritating cos i got more work to do cos i need to finish up their work for them.wa lao wat is this man,every week also one ppl taking leave.i think if i reali cant tahan tat workload then i will take one day leave too..why work so hard man when u receive the same hourly pay.sian.todae 1st day of work after cny,somehow it feels reali sian man..no mood to work at all..sigh.and wed is coming soon,its another teahing session,sian man, i always got to crack my head wat to teach.hai~for now i think i got to get bac to work cos i reali got lots of unfinished work to do.ok i have 2.5hrs to finish my work before knock off.sigh.
me and him like quite jialat now.hai~-shake head- i also duno why things are like tat too.perhaps i am too coldhearted liao..everything also bo chap..hmm..

~cny downtown @chinatown~

fireworks@ chinatown

cny eve was kinda nice esp when i could see fireworks and firecrackers.cny eve, me and my mum went to chinatown to count down and we bought 2 plastic bags of mua ji for $6..haha..damn cheap man cos those shopholders are clearing stock,else they will not earn a single cent if they dun sell it cheap.yeah, tat nite actually if u did not eat dinner also will get full de cos after trying so many samples as u walk pass the shops, u will definitely get full de.yes,i got full becos i ate alot of mua ji..haha.and i happen to pass by a shop tat sell organic soyabean drink.oh ya, then i recalled abt the incident tat i read on someone blog.atcually i dun think tat organic soyabean taste special.it seems to me tat they taste the same as normal soyabean drinks.and tat nite i happened to see 2 of my long lost ex sch mates.one of them is zheng quan and he was the one who called out for me.i was kinda shocked tat he could still recognise me cos its been quite some time tat we last seen each other le and moreover i thought tat i predicted tat it would be super hot and stuffy tat night,so i decided to wear a tank top tat nite.i rarely wear tank top on normal day cos i dun reali like..haha.

then i also witness someone almost going to be send to the police for stealing mua ji.but eventually tat person gave the shopkeeper $50 and the shopkeeper decides to let him off.phew, i think tat was a lucky escape for tat person, else his future will be ruin le.

the fireworks are quite nice also.not to mention tat the firecrackers are reali powerful cos we have reali stand quite far from the firecrackers and yet our clothes got reali dirty after the firecrackers explode finish..hai~this few days so sian man, got onli $26 of ang bao money onli..rest of the time was spent on watching tv and sleeping.such life is kinda bored man.

~super exhausted at work~

this week,3 big boss from australia came down to spore for some meeting.oh man, 2 of the ang mo are quite handsome..haha, they are just hunks to me.i think they are quite friendly also,onli 1 of the guy is kinda stern.i dare not talk much to them other than saying "gd morning" to them.cos i think my english is very lousy,it would be better if i dun speak.but at least i think their english is still understandable, cos some of the ang mo speak with a reali heavy slang, til i cant reali catch they are trying to say.then i will be like "huh??"but i think working in this company will be a gd experience cos i will get to encounter lots of ang mo,then i need not be fearful of them anymore cos i always get veri fearful of them esp whenever they speak to me.next week,my big big boss also coming down,yes its another ang mo again.hai~i hope i need not attend dinner or watever shit meeting cos usually i need not go for meeting since i am just a temp onli.sian, anyway meeting are also veri bored la cos i also duno wat they talking abt.i am just an A level student with limited working knowledge.
yesterday life was like hell for me cos 2 of my colleagues are on leave, leaving onli me and the other colleagues and moreover i am not veri familiar with the system so its kinda hard for my colleague.yes, yesterday i have to finish up work tat is allocated for 3 ppl usually.ya, of cos i was unhappy cos so much things to do la,and phone calls kept on coming in, which slows down my working speed cos i still need to attend to them.ya, but eventually my colleague did help me complete my incomplete work cos she knows tat its impossible for me to finish.yeah,so happy tat time =)
todae is cny eve,going to chinatown later at nite to buy cheap cny cookies..yeah i rmb last yr after 12am, they reali sold their things reali cheap tat u cant reali imagine tat its so cheap.this ys i am going to do it again cos my house haven bought any single thing yet.me and my mum was just going there to clear stock for them..haha.cny is the most sian celebration for me cos i dun go visiting at all.i shall spend my time watching my tv shows and preparing my piano lesson for next upcoming wed.this sun got a cny gathering too.hopefully it turn out nice,hehe..i hope tat 2 guys will be there too.lets hope tat they are invited too..

~things has turn out better le =) ~

ok for now, things have reali turn out better le.i reali took out my courage to say this out and discard my pride and somehow things reali have became better le.pehaps earlier on i reali think too much liao.sat i was still sick, so decided to stay at home and go nowhere cos i wanted to take a rest and nuah at home watch tv..i realised tat recent yrs, i keep falling sick veri often,it just seems tat my body resistance is more prone to the attack of bacteria in this recent yrs..ok, tat's bad cos when i was young, i rmb its veri hard for me to fall sick de.and i also realised tat lots of my guy friends know how to make pineapple tarts cookies for cny.wa, they are so smart.me, myself, being a ger duno how to bake such things lah.ok, this just shows how bad am i in cooking and baking things.actually if i got the chance to learn baking things, i wouldnt mind taking time off to learn cos i find tat it can be quite an interesting thing to learn and moreover i like to eat these kind of cny cookies.if i know how to make, then i can eat like siao whenever i got nothing to eat during tea break and zhuo bo time.haha.
sun went out with my mum to expo to shop.initally i didnt want her to tag along de cos she always like to control watever i buy, so i find her reali a nag tagging along with me when i am going for shopping.yes, eventually i didnt manage to stop her from following me so she tagged along and yes i was right,she kept on controlling wat i buy.hai~sian man, go out shopping with her still must get her approval to buy things.aiya its my money wat, not her money,why bother so much on wat i spent on.as long as i dun buy super ex things then i see no reason why she like to control so much loh.yup, after tat went to je to search around for hp shop to service my brother hp which is at my brother's friend there.yes, tat hp of mine reali took a plane from taiwan to spore.haha,. and i was so shocked to hear when i need to fork out $80 just to repair tat LCD screen and its considered the cheapest liao when some shops told me tat my repair service could go up to $150..damn man, my brother is going to get a scolding from me liao.hmm..i am still considering to service tat hp or not cos afterall the shopkeepers told me tat its not worth repairing tat phone considering tat the money for repair services could be use to buy a new hp liao.yesterday i suddenly thought of XXX.yes, i reali miss the days when all of us gather together for bbq,esp those instructors.yeah, probably one of my 21st birthday wish to get to see them again and probably get in touch with them again.somehow u just miss the ppl tat u dun get to see often when u are working cos working life reali sucks esp when i find tat me and my colleagues belongs to 2 different world,meaning like wat they usually does in my leisure time is totally different from mine.they go gym and drinking, but i dun at all.lifestyle are just totally different lah.

~xin hao fann~

lately i have been feeling reali fann over so many things.sorry if i will snap at ppl or get pissed off towards ppl for some small issues.yeah,duno why also lah,lately has been in a terribly bad mood.first issue was,how should i tell him tat everything is just a misunderstanding? or maybe i just think too much,perhaps things are not so bad as wat i imagine?aiya duno lah, lee qin min got so many things to handle with, going to go crazy soon.hopefully this chinese new yr will give me sufficient break to take a rest off everything.i need not have to teach, neither do i have to work and most imptly i need not have to see my freaking piano teacher's face.duno why i reali dislike this piano teacher veri much.he is so impatient and keep scolding me.see him liao also sian..todae's piano lesson was reali a super pissed off day for me.what it actually happens was i find my teacher reali damn rude la.come on lah,i am just having slight flu and cough and he keep isolating me and he sit reali far when he teach me.and one thing i cant tolerate him is that he is damn bloody rude cos he kept on covering his nose and mouth when he teach me.wat the bloody hell man,its not as if i got some disease tat can spread to ppl,eg like aids.even if its aids, it wont spread through air transmission either.in conclusion he is just a bad mannered teacher.just now i reali feel like telling him off by bringing his mum into his pict saying tat his mum is so bad in teaching his son upbringing.but i didnt cos i think it would be veri veri rude of me.so i will tolerate !!!! actually just now i was scolded so bad tat i wanted to cry out liao but i reali bear with it cos i told myself tat i shouldnt be defeated so easily and i am 21 this yr le, so cant drop tears tat easily.endure and tolerate will be the best words to describe me now.sigh..