~still lost as ever before~

last fri was went off early since i had something on..so i told my small boss tat i had to leave by 4pm.so to earn bac tat 1 hour pay, so i sacrifices my lunch break to work..but to say the truth, i didnt work at all since all of them are out for lunch, so i decided to slag before they come bac for lunch.ok, but heng eventually i managed to rush finish my work before i leave.else, i doubt i will leave with guilt.
Sat went for ntu talk @ suntec..ok, the talk was quite similar to last yr's presentation slides..somehow the talk refresh my memory of wat the course was all about cos last yr i went there with a veri blur mind cos i dun even know anything abt any course.but this yr at least i am clearer abt wat does the course require u to study.well, i am still as lost as before.wat should i do man?and i realised tat money is veri impt now cos i doubt i will be able to pay for my uni fees if i am given a chance to enter uni.jialat,not to mention tat my parents has no money at all.then wat should i do also?? the money tat i earn now are reali peanuts and not even enough to pay for the tuition loan.hai~so many troubles tat cant be solved within my capability.must i must say tat one of the lecturer for the talk is super boring and his voice is so "sweet" tat i almost fall asleep.but i realised tat somehow i listening compreh has improved ever since these 1.5months of customer service training.at least i can understand ppl wat they wan esp for those with slang.for wat, tat particular lecturer has a heavy indian slang and seriously last yr i couldnt understand at all.but this yr, i can understand better le.=) actually last sat last min got date with jin yi de.but i dun feel like going cos my day quite pack le and after the so many hours of talks reali make tired sia.actually i do feel awarkward going out with him la, so this is one reason tat i dun wan meet up with him..haha,.i am quite bad right?
yesterday had a quite bad quarrel with my mum.aiya she is unreasonable again and so i in a fit of anger bao chou on her..i purposely anger her by not giving her face since my dad says tat we go out eat together to celebrate her bday but i die die also refuse to go.then i think she is super angry with me tat she got bac the ang bao tat she gave me.aiya,who cares,as if i cares for tat small money..lohz..ok la, actually i do have my fault too la.
ok todae is super busy and tired.work for non stop.sian.