Friday, May 18, 2007

~i am seriously scared now~

wat should i do now?? i cant stop worrying abt the results which is going to be out next week and it is coming so soon and my fate will be sealed by next week!!..i am so scared to know the outcome..i think this weekend i will spend most of my time worrying again...sigh..todae lots of the ex j2 students came bac sch to take their cert and i saw my friend..i was surprised to hear tat she and yh got the same results but somehow she haven received the application results when yh has already received it..so i think it will all be depends on luck..i duno if i will be tat lucky to get in, but i reali hope this time will cos i reali wish to move on in life instead of stucking in sch with tat shallow and peanuts knowledge..seriously tat A levels cert is just useless if i cant get to uni..she feels tat repeating isnt a way out this time round, though the sch did call her to ask if she wans to repeat..so she said tat if reali cant go in the have to go private uni le..if cant pay then have to work and study at the same time...for me, i did thought of tat, but i duno if i got the discipline to study and work at the same time..for all i know is i am quite slack and lazy at times if there is no one to control and discipline me...

seriously life now is just seriously bored, life is so stale now without any friends around..though i am learning to be independent, but the empty feeling in me overwhelms the feeling of having friends around to talk abt troubles u have..todae saw idol 1, finally, after so many weeks..i saw him when i was going to sch tat time, so when he walked further away from me, i turned bac to take a glance at him secretly..haha, this is the nice feeling of idolzing someone where he duno abt tat..

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