~life is always so unpredictable~

last fri on my way home, i saw terence and its exactly at the same spot where we met last time..he asked me so how abt the gathering tat u wanted previously..opps, tat was wat my mind was thinking abt tat point of time cos i have totally forgotten abt it..i told him previously tat i wanted to organise a gathering but provided tat i can go uni, else i will be too sad sobbing away, dun think i got the mood to celebrate too..he told me not to be like tat leh cos whether i can go in or not wont affect de, eventually u still need to move on in life..aiya i will see how first, but if i reali go in then i will promise watever i said, organise a outing...

sat i went for my paino lesson..this time round, i am reali serious in listening to lesson cos my exams are coming soon and i need to be serious liao..i realised tat music is something tat is reali hard to understand..there are just alot of hidden meaning tat need to be interpretated..and most of the time i dun understand wat the pieces i am talking abt, quite have to play bindly loh..and i realised tat i cant appreciate piano pieces cos usually i tend to switch off after a while.hence, sometimes i think tat art students are reali better than sci students cos at least they think more than sci students..sci students tend to be more mechanical asnd robotic..sat my brother also got his posting and i was reali shocked by the posting results cos i expected him to go a better course instead of tat course given to him..i reali feel tat given his grades he can reali go courses tat are better loh..mum is just reali upset over it, but never mind, next yr he shall apply again..then my parents sae:" i am onli left with u tat i am worried cos i think chances are just reali hard now.."phew, i have been thinking alot during the weekend, i also duno wat to do if cant get in also..dad was also saying tat u can stop dreaming abt studying and working at the same time cos i know tat u are not up to tat.. so wat now? i cant give an ans to myself too..lately was just too preoccupied with worries until i dun have tat mood to do my homework..all i hope was i am go in uni regardless of any dumping course tat they wish to offer me..wat i am most scared is i cant even go in dumping course la..tat is relai the worst scenario tat i can expect...