yesterday i stayed bac in sch to study for my physics test,but ended up like doing nothing cos i fell asleep halfway through and i realised tat the sch library is reali noisy tat hardly i can cramp the stuff inside my brain..so i onli studied like a few pages of my lecture notes,which is kind of pathetic cos i got 3 chapters to cover for the test and i never even complete one lecture note in sch..then later decide to go home at instead cos i dun find it efficient staying in sch even though i know tat at home i confirm wont study cos i will be super tired.just as i expected,i reali got home doing nothing..went home to watch a show cos my teacher will be on the tv and they will be filming her house and her hubby.after which cm called me to ask me if i know my posting le,i told her tat i haven got it yet but weird, she have gotton her posting liao and she managed to get into NUS and not NTU..seriously i feel damn weird la,why NTU didnt accept her huh, cos both of us feel tat supposedly her grades are onli gd enough to go into NTU.but somehow she is kind of not happy getting into her course cos she said she didnt reali want tat course,she apply for tat course just to fill up the 8 courses completely tat we wish to apply..but seriously i feel tat her course is reali a gd course la,but too bad, she just dun like it..actually to me i think tat got sch willing to take me in then veri heng liao..i guess my results cant reali go anywhere..i can onli wait for ppl to choose cos i dun have the chance to choose wat i wan..its just like choosing a husband or bf..if u have gd qualities,then u have the chance to choose whoever u wish to be with,however if one does not posses gd qualities,then u just have to wait for ppl to take u..i guess my situation is just like wat i describe above..i just have to wait patiently for this whole month to take me into their sch..hai~~duno why i feel seriously demoralised over everything liao cos whatever i do i always fail and never suceeded before..though i tried to be pestismistic at times but somehow it still dun reali work on me..hai~why is my life always full of troubles..then yesterday after cm called me i immediately switched on my comp and went online to check my application status cos i didnt know the thing is up liao.so i tried entering the webpage for reali long and i realised tat i couldnt get in so i started to be reali panic..so i asked her why is tat so..then she told me tat maybe i didnt get in ba..when i see tat msg,my heart was reali shattered and was super sad..but later i try my brother's account and he also cant get through,so i assumed tat my application haven finalised yet cos my brother got 4 As,cant be rejected by NUS ba..with all As, i am sure tat he can go any course he wans to..so after tat i became better cos i was console by the fact tat the results haven finalised yet..phew...tat reali scare me to death...but seriously i feel tat has NTU has raised its standard of taking in students cos students with quite average grade also cant get in..hmm..
seriously everyday in sch i have been waiting for phone call from NTU or NUS hoping tat they would call me, but so far they haven call me yet..my friends sae tat probably they will call me soon,maybe the end of may..seriously lately i didnt reali talk or stay close with my classmates,duno why also..everyday it seems tat i am just sticking around with yk tat i hardly got time to interact with my classmates..but seriously i dun feel anything despite the fact tat usually i am alone when yk is not around.maybe i have reali learn to be independent liao and not too much reliance on friends' company..i just got bac my chem test,did veri badly for both..but duno why i dun feel sad at all ah,maybe i am used to the failing life liao..actually i didnt reali expect much cos tat both test i didnt reali study much,so cant expect to do well when i didnt put in effort at all..so wat abt the phyics test todae??hmm..actually i also duno how i will do for it but i feel tat the time is reali not enough..i have been seeing idol 2 practically most of the days..hardly see tat idol 1..where has he gone to??hmm..
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