maybe i am kinda stress out over the past few days tat i cried..not to sae tat my mum keep creating troubles for no reason..hey man, i am already damn vexed and upset over the entire thing and she keep rubbing salt on my wound and keeps saying sacastic things to me..she keeps saying tat i have come to this end partly becos i am unfilial to them so heaven is punishing me..wat sort of rubbish man..ok, it might be the truth tat i am unfilial to my mum but not my dad wat..i always dun like my mum cos all along she is biased towards me and give me tat kind of attitude, so i just treat her bac the way she treats me (though i know tat it's wrong la"maril told me tat i am be like tat forever wat..true enough tat i cant be like wat i am now, but i reali guess i need more time to think over and convinced myself..for now, i just couldnt convinced myself tat i can do it again cos i have reali lost faith in myself after so many times of failure and i guess its not easy to find bac my confidence when i used to have when i was in my j1 repeat days.
homework is stacking up higher and higher day by day and i just dun have the time to do it partly becos when the momenti reached home i got veri tired and after which have to play my piano (cos i was forced by it), afterwhich usually tend to get veri sleepy and next, i will fall asleep til the next day..i am reali sick of such life liao and how long can i offically leave this sch cos i reali cant wait to get out of this sch.my mum met a ger yesterday and she asked the ger wat she got for her A levels cos my mum saw her holding the graduating cert book and she did worst than me..so my mum asked her why she dun wan to repeat?she replied tat the life is tough and she didnt want to go bac to the days..imagine her sch is so near her house lah, then me leh? super far a way, shouldnt i be more kelian than her? i duno, i just feel damn pathetic given the conditions i am in now..
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