Wednesday, May 02, 2007

~the worried feeling in me again!~

weekend was pretty a gd one..actually most of the time i was wasting my time sleeping cos i always feel sleepy at home..the cosy floor always attracted me to sleep...sat was spending most of my time watching tv cos i am just glued to a particular taiwan serial show..sun, jing yi asked me if i am free to meet up since its been a long time since we last seen each other..actually i wanted to meet up de since i am kinda of bored coping at home doing homework,but later i changed my mind cos its weird to go out with a guy alone..duno why i just dun dare go out with some guys alone..but some guys like yk, jt and some others should be ok..i always treat yk as another yh cos naturally i dun treat him as a guy..haha..i am not scared tat they will do anything to me or wat,but just tat, its just weird la..i am scared tat there will be nothing to talk between us or rather when we go out, we will just stare at each other..oh man,tat will be the worst date..i am not saying tat he is scary or wat,but just tat if he ask a group along to go out then maybe i will go..then sun my brother was telling me tat his friend with B and C grades cant go into NTU,then i started panicking,i started asking myself tat if he cant go in then tat's means i cant go in also???oh man, this is a veri worried thing to me..friends have been asking me if i have gotton my posting and i told them i haven..i guess i will onli received it by the end of may cos i believe tat those with lousy results will get at tat time just like last yr..sigh...everyday is a worried and panicking day for me until i received my posting..most of the ppl in sch sae tat i can go in de cos they sae tat there are more ppl with lousier results than me,but at the end of the day, its my luck tat still matters cos its reali up to heaven liao..
my brother is just kinda of sway cos he was called up for guard duty cos he always take MC..but he is always sick wat, canot blame him wat..sometimes i think he is veri ke lian loh,see him like kana tortured by the tough training in NS..then recently his helmet dropped from the 5th floor to the ground floor until it almosts hit one officer..i think becos of this he has to do his so call "Dentention"..and worst still, labour may he was alone with a an officer in SISPEC,so he had to sleep alone with no lights on..if i were him,i will be frightened like anything cos there quite ulu man..
hai~there is so much tests..yj is forever full of tests,so sick of it liao..fri i got an upcoming test,seriously dun feel like studying man cos its so sian la,keep reading the same old thing since last yr liao and some of it i still can memorized la..and tat gp teacher also,give so much homework !!! but some i cant be bothered to do cos i find it pointless to do for some of them..
duno why i suddenly have the urge hoping to be attached cos its kind of lonely going through life alone...but haha,there are hardly guys for me to know,cos most of the guys around me are either too young for me or they are attached..sometimes i laugh at wat the meassges tat those online guys send..cos they describe me until like some angel so tat they will get their attention from u,but its pointless cos i WONT be interested in those guys unless i know them personally..moreover those guys, 9 out ten cant be trusted..most of them are just out to cheat young innocent gers..i realised tat my social circle are just reali small man..how can i get married in 7 yrs time if i dun slowly find one now..haha...this is bad..

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