~the results will comfirm be out next week~

yesterday my mum has called NTU to ask if when i will received my application results..initially the person didnt want to sae de, but later duno wat my mum sae then she onli revealed abit, saying tat the most she can revealed is tat i can get it only by next week..so i believed tat the results are already printed out liao, just tat duno why they still dun wan to send to us..for now, i can onli pray hard and think of how to write the appeal eassy just in case i cant get in..i must make sure tat it is of gd quality so my teacher has agreed to edit for me after i wrote it..sigh..after the results are out, it will either become a nightmare to me or either i will be happily leaving sch..but wat tat makes me most worried is they didnt even call me up for interview..if they got call me then at least shows tat i still got some chance..sigh..
todae my tutor was talking to me then she mentioned tat i am a person who is indecisive, meaning i cant make up my mind for watever i do..yes, wat she sae is true cos i knew tat being indecisive is my shortcoming all along and being easily distracted is also one of my weakness and shortcoming..she sae tat i reali need to improve on tat cos in future when i go out to work, i cant be like this, else it will be veri hard for me to survive cos many at times i will feel uncertain and confused..but she sae one gd thing abt me is i never give up upon facing failure.she said tat there are some students who give up on themselves after they need a failure, but i dont..maybe i dun give up on myself cos afterall i always experience failure until i am used to it le, so afterall i became used to it le..
todae i think my gp kinda know tat i didnt pay attention to class cos i was kind of switching off..i switch off becos i dun understand wat the passage is talking abt and how can i phrase the passage in my own words..so after tat i reali stare blankly into space cos i still dun understand after my teacher explains abt it..maybe my english is reali too lousy until i dun understand wat she is talking abt..it seems tat i have the lousiest eng in class despite the fact tat i am taking gp the 4th yr..sigh..my mind is just worried abt my future now, nothing else reali matters most to me..